Song for this chap : Amnesia - 5sos.
Aku berjalan pelan memasuki kamar lewat jendela. Hari sudah gelap tanda seisi rumah sudah terlelap. Insomnia menggangguku. Aku baru saja pergi karena bosan. Tentu saja. Aku di hantui menit menit dimana ia berselingkuh.
Mengambil gitar dan memangku gitar. Sekedar bosan dan ingin bercurhat. Memasang kamera yang merekam ku tak jauh di depanku.
Belum menyalakan kamera, aku hanya ingin mengetes nada gitar. Setelah merasa semua nya pas, aku mulai menyalakan kamera dan memetik gitar.
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
Aku baru saja berjalan ke taman. Tempat dimana kami suka bertemu pada sore hari. Berbagi earphone sambil menatap langit yang menggelap.
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Aku hanya bisa tersenyum pedih sambil menyanyikan lirik ini
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though she's right beside you?
Aku ingin bertanya tentang ini padanya sejak seminggu yang lalu. Hati ini terlalu peduli dengan hati yang telah menyakitinya.
When she says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Aku juga pernah mengirimi pesan berisi caci maki dari hatiku yang mulai lelah seminggu lalu.
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
Im not fine. At all.
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
"We're done. I'm done. Good night."
I remember the sad tears running down your face
Aku hanya bisa tersenyum mengingat lagu ini untuk perempuan. Dan mulutku mengganti lirik nya.
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
"Let's make a wish !"
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
I really wish i could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
I want to forget everything. Even those little things he said he love about me.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I am. Not fine.
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
Aku sering melihat foto foto lama itu. Dan sekarang, aku merasa kesepian.
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
Tentu mereka bertanya. Aku sering menghindar.
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
Air mataku mengalir tanpa permisi. Dan jatuh tanpa pamit. Seakan aku memang ingin menangis.
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the tears running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
I wish.
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Aku tidak bisa berhenti bernyanyi. Airmataku terus mengalir.
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
Jika memang benar, aku harap itu bukan sekedar mimpi.
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I am not fine.
Tanpa pemikiran ulang, aku mematikan kamera dan segera mempost video tersebut. Berlari keluar entah kemana.
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--ashton--
Aku terduduk dengan segelas minuman di tanganku. Entah bagaimana ketiga teman gila ku bisa menarikku sampai ke club ini. Mereka asik berdansa dan aku lebih seperti orang frustasi. Memang frustasi maksudku.
Dia. Bayang bayang nya. Kenangan nya. Hal favoritnya. Sikap nya. Semua nya tentang nya terus berkecamuk di otakku. Bagaimana bau nya. Bagaimana ia memakai hoddieku. Semua itu terus berputar di sekitarku seakan akan dia memang di sekitarku.
Tentu aku merindukan nya.
Sangat.
Aku menoleh ke arah handphone di genggaman ku. Melihat satu notifikasi dari nomor yang sangat ku kenali.
Ibu nya.
She crashed. And woke up with amnesia. I need you. Now.
Xx.
Inggris tep ngapa astopir.
BETEWE AING SENENG BAT YAWLA. MINGGU KEMAREN TRUST FUND BABY KELUAR. ENAK SIH. LIRIK NYA ITU LOH.
oke oke maap. Sans kok.
Hope y'all like this one
Kurang mood gt tep ny jd y gt de.
Love,
Tep.
