The Good, The Bad, and The Dirty

I hate your love but need it like a drug

GUYS I SURVIVED MY FIRST DAY

Warnings: Rape Attempt

There is NO rape in this chapter but for those who are uncomfortable I'll say when the rape attempt is about to happen and put a small summary next chapter

January Ages 16-17

"You smell good." Chris said while playing with Pj's hair. Pj giggled a bit.

"Why are you smelling me?" Pj teased. The two were cuddling on Pj's bed.

"Because I can. You smell better than cigarettes." Chris said, not meaning for Pj to take offense. But Pj did.

"What's the suppose to mean?" Pj asked bitterly.

"It means I'm glad you quit?" Chris said confused.

"I didn't quit, I was never addicted. I could quit whenever I wanted to. I'm just doing it because Chosen is going to give me $300 at then end of the school year. I'm just taking a break." Pj said and Chris got out of Pj's arms quickly.

"Taking a break? So what, when he pays you you're going to start?" Chris asked hurt.

"Yeah it's fun." Pj said and Chris scoffed.

"Fun? You're giving yourself lung cancer-"

"Oh not this shit again." Pj groaned. Chris rolled his eyes.

"It's not shit Pj it's the truth! Stop being so damn blind!" Chris yelled.

"Get out." Pj said and Chris crossed his arms and scoffed.

"Excuse me?" Chris asked hurt.

"Get. Out. I don't need to hear this shit again. If you're just going to leave me again do it." Pj said and Chris ignored the tears in his waterline.

"Fine." Chris said, his voice shaky and slammed the door.

***

"Chris?" Dan asked and walked to the cliff. Chris turned around, showing his tear covered face. "Are you okay?"

"No I'm not okay!" Chris sobbed. Dan sat down next to him and rubbed his back comfortingly.

"What happened?" Dan asked softly.

"Me and Pj started arguing and then he said he was going to start smoking again after the school year ends." Chris cried.

"Why do you still bother with him? He's an idiot Chris." Dan said.

"But he's my idiot! Ever since we were kids he was always mine! I love him! I don't want to lose him. Not again. I won't be able to do it." Chris sobbed.

"I'm okay I'm sorry. Maybe you could try talking to him about it?" Dan suggested.

"Okay.."

***

Pj left the store and drove back to his house, ignoring the tears in his eyes. He slammed the car door and ran up to his room. He pulled out a cigarette and lit it.

"What the fuck add are you doing?" Chosen asked and Pj dropped the cigarette in fear.

"Jesus! Do you always just climb people's windows without their permission!" Pj yelled.

"Jesus take a chill pill. What's up your ass?" Chosen asked and Pj scoffed.

"Chris left me again." Pj said.

"Again? When did he leave you the first time?" Chosen asked.

"Uh years ago. Before Dan and Phil split." Pj said confused.