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I heard gun fires everywhere pero kahit anong dilat ko sa mata ko ay napaka dilim parin. I heard a familiar voice that was calling my name over ang over again pero wala akong makita. Now that voice was crying like she was in pain and i hated the fact that I can't do anything to help her. She keep calling my name and i hate myself more. The call turned into a sob until it became a whisper hanggang sa wala na akong marinig. I panicked, I don't want to lose her. I wanted her to keep calling me so i can trace her through her voice. I keep walking, hoping that i can find something while trying to feel everything around me.
"Goodbye" thats the last word she said and im losing it..
"NO!!!!!!!!!!" Agad akong napabangon. Tears keep on streaming and my heart won't stop beating rapidly.
"Elle, calm down. You're having a bad dream" napalingon ako sa lalaking katabi ko. Nakahubad baro ito at natabunan ng comforter ang kalahati ng katawan nya. He tried to calm me down while caressing my shaking hands.
He wiped my tears at Nakatitig ako sa mukha nyang puno ng pag aalala.
How can i have a bad dream after the happy moments we had last night? Or early in the morning. Inabot na pala kami ng madaling araw.
Humihikbi parin ako ng ikinulong nya ako sa yakap nya. Hinimas himas nya ang likod ko and its helping. Kumalma ako kahit papaano.
"It's okay. Im here, it was just a dream" pagpapakalma parin nya sakin.
"I was so scared. It felt so real, the voice, the gunfires the chaos that was happening around me seems so real"
"Shhhhhhhh... its not true.. you woke up and see? Panaginip lang lahat ng yun" tumango ako.
"Im glad that it was all just a dream. Panatag ako kahit papaano na nagising ako. I don't like it. I dont like the dark, i don't like the fact that i cant do anything about it"
Pinakiramdaman ko parin ang haplos at yakap ni Thunder sakin. And when i looked down mabilis ako humiwalay sa kanya at agad na itinago ang dibdib sa comforter.
I didn't realized that i was also naked. Sobrang nang init ang mukha ko ng maisip kong nagkadikit ang dibdib naming dalawa. Yung lungkot at takot ko kanina ay napalitan ng hiya. It's so embarrassing.
He chuckled because of that then he caressed my face. Nakatitig lang sya sakin na tila ba ang lalim lalim ng iniisip nya. And here i am again, trying to read him but still can't. I badly wanted to know what's on his mind right now.
He looked confused, sad, regretful, happy, overwhelmed, basta masyadong marami kaya di ko alam kung alin doon ang tunay nyang naramdaman.
Sinalubong ko ang titig nya then suddenly i felt scared, scared of the possibilities of what will happen next. Scared that I invested too much or shall we say i invested all of me for him. It is scary because i know that even how many times he will fail me I'll still end up on forgiving him. Mawala na siguro ako sa sarili ko pero it will never happen that ill blame him or I'll regret about my decision to be with him.
