NaLu [ONE SHOTS]

Loneliness

Why is love making me suffer so much?

"Natsu.." Blonde Celestial wizard sobbed into her sheets. Her head buried deep into her soft pillow. Her heart aching at the thought of the boy.

She cried over him for who knows how many months now. She missed him so much after everything with Tartaros happened.

Loneliness is what you get out of love; it makes your life miserable, breaks your heart into thousand pieces and still each broken part of your heart misses him like your heart missed him as whole.

Why did I have to fall in love with you?

She could handle the life without him, and probably if she tried, she would eventually get over him.

But the problem was, she didn't want to. She still hoped for his return and their 'happy ever after'.

Each and every thing she tried  seems meaningless, at start everything looks extraordinary and ecstatic but at the end you are left with nothing except agony and emptiness.

"I hate you.."

"I hate you.."

"I hate you so much.."

But I don't hate you nearly as much as I hate myself for letting myself fall for you..

She had known that to love deeply meant to risk great pain, and still, she couldn't help herself. When he left she was left lost.

The tears were not quiet nor controlled, they fell as fast as the rain and she sobbed to draw breath. Her lungs heaved and she knew there was no cure for her heart.

She had never looked at another, wanted another.

His appearance was more than enough. His smile was enough to turn her entire mood upside down. Even if she refused to admit it, she needed him.

He was alive but gone.

It was her pain and she would keep it, it was the intensity of this heartache that proved the strength of their bond and she could not bare to feel less.

——————————————————————

liked it?

should I make a second book of these?

thank you for reading, it means a lot