KING OF TORMENTS [Completed]

CHAPTER 8

They said, I was too lucky to have parents whose physically features were really head turners. Maswerte raw ako dahil nakuha ko ang natural na mapulang labi ni mommy at ang kanyang itim at mahabang buhok. Maswerte raw ako dahil hindi ko na kailangang maglagay ng anumang kolorete sa mukha para lamang maging kapansin-pansin.

Maswerte raw ako dahil nakuha ko ang angas at tapang ni Daddy. Aside from that, I was his carbon copy. Mula sa hulma at tangos ng ilong, sa hugis ng kilay at higit sa lahat, nakuha ko ang mga mata niyang naging bangungot ng musmos kong kaisipan. Every time I would at my eyes throught the mirror, I felt like I was looking at my father's dark and evil eyes. Because no matter how I denied it, the eyes that used to be my nightmare were the same with the eyes I have now.

Yes, I inherited the greatest assets of my parents. Their timeless beauties that broke a lot of hearts. I have the face that could turn any men's head. I have the beauty that can make any women's pride bruised. They were right about that part. Only that, they were wrong when they told me that I was lucky, because I was not.

My parents were my nightmares and seeing how I got their looks, my face became my nightmare, too. They made me like them, they made me an evil, too. They raised me to be a tough and independent woman, someone who won't need others praises and sweet words to justify my worth. They raised me with pride as high as the sky. They raised me with a clever and wise mind set. While they were busy molding me as woman they wanted me to be, and the woman I had became now, along the process, I'd lose my love for them. I'd lose my hope for a perfect family.

Noong bata pa ako palaging pinagmamalaki ng mga kaklase ko ang mga magulang nila. They looked up to their parents as someone they considered as their heroes and heroines. Sa murang edad ko pinipilit kong maramdaman ang bagay na 'yon. Gusto kong mahanap ang gano'ng klaseng pakiramdam. Ngunit sa tuwing tinitingnan ko ang aking mga magulang, hindi ko makita mula sa kanilang mga mata ang pagmamahal na nakikita ko sa mga mata ng magulang ng mga kaklase ko.

Naalala ko pa noon. Kaming tatlo nina Lush at River lang ang palaging nasa mansyon kasama ang aming mga yaya. Palagi kong inaaabangan ang pag-uwi ng mga magulang ko. Palagi akong nag-aabang sa labas ng gate. Minsan napapagalitan na ako ni Lush dahil halos makatulugan ko na ang pag-iyak habang hinihintay sila. Kaso sa bawat pag uwi nila mas lalo lamang nilang dinudurog ang musmos kong puso. They acted so formal. They always talked about businesses. And the worst, I witnessed countless of times how easy for them to kill someone without mercy. Minulat nila ako sa mundong ang pagpatay ay para lamang isang normal na gawain.

"Bakit niyo po siya pinatay?" humihikbi kong tanong habang nakatingin sa walang buhay kong yaya.

Nag-angat ng tingin ang aking ama. Wala akong makitang pagsisisi sa kanyang expression. Habang ako ay nanginginig na sa takot.

Naglakad siya papalapit sa akin. Hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam nang takot. Ngumiti siya sa akin at ginulo ang buhok ko. 'Yong ngiting may ibang kislap ang mga mata.

"If they cannot equal your loyalty, kill them before they will stab you harder from the back. She made a mistake and she suffered the consequences of her action," malamig niyang sagot. "Remember this Sapphire, never hesitate to kill those who betrayed you, regardless of how much they mean to you. Kill them without tears falling from your eyes, no matter if it will also hurt you in the process. Never be attached with anyone. Because the world we are in, and the surname you have don't tolerate emotions. Keep that in mind."

My love for my father was replaced of hatred. Habang tumatagal unti-unti ko nang natatanggap ang katotohanang my father will never be a real father figure to me. He might be my father by blood but he will never be my father by heart. I abhorred him because he made me like this. He made me followed his principle and I unconsciously conformed to his will. He made me a monster just like him.