Lucid dreams

Lucid dreams 19

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..instead of stepping into the apartment, I stepped in front of her as she looked down at the ground not wanting me to see her face..
"Am sorry hey.. "I began but she cut in,
"Must you always apologize? " still not looking up but from the tune of her voice she wasn't angry as I feared..
I smiled... "I don't wanna ever hurt you" I swore from the dept of my heart.
"But you do most of the times" she said, then looked up at me.. "You get angry and then start punching walls! " she almost yelled in a trembling manner,
"Am used to I.."i began but she cut in
"Now look at your hands, you are not superman and neither are you made of steel Barnabas!" We both froze immediately,
She has never mentioned my name in full before, I knew she was serious now... I began to control myself..
She noticed and took my hands..
"Hurting yourself hurts those who care about you, I guess you don't know that's why.. "
I sighed as she stared at my bandaged hands,
"You hurt me when you hurt yourself dad....." She whispered
I folded my fist and grinded my teeth together... I began to hate myself, looking at what my actions were doing to her.. Reflexes took over as I turned to face the lintel of the door, my fist tightened forgetting the pain..
"Punch it ooo! "I heard Vicky and immediately came back to my senses..
I Shook my head and looked into her eyes..
"I hate it when I hurt you"I said.. I was hating myself at the moment..
"If you wanna stop hurting me dad.,stop hurting yourself"she said and walked in pulling me inside..
She pulled me to sit and went to lock the door.. I watched her silently as she turned the lock... Many thoughts opened into my head....
As she turned back I looked away quickly..
She walked pass into what looked like her kitchen "you are the baby tonight " I heard her say...
I chuckled as I began to crawl the sitting room with my eyes, majority of the things here were pink and black
Just then I felt something touch my laps..it was her bag..!!!