Lately, I have been feeling depressed. I haven't said anything to Walt about it casue I know when what he deals with is more important than me... Well, that is what I feel.
I put on a big fake smile and act like the happiest woman n the world when on the inside I feel like shit.
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Not knowing that Walt is home I let my true emotions and feelings surface. I slump on the couch and just look very depressed which is what I am.
"Wanna finally tell me what is wrong or you gonna continue to fake?"
I jump at the sound of his voice not knowing that he was home.
"I don't wanna bother you when you have more important things to worry about besides me and my pettiness," I tell him
He walks over and squats down and grabs my chin and has me look at him.
"Every and anything that has to do with you is important to me, I don't know why you would think it's not. you're my wife and I want to know what is wrong. and how I can try to fix it or do something for you" he tells me.
I looked down even with him still holding my chin.
" I know you have more things to worry about from work so I didn't want to bother you with my sour mood," I tell him.
"Baby! Your worries are mine as well" He tells me
I tear up and he lets my c,hin go and wipes my eyes as the tears fall.
"I know that I have a lot of things going on a work and I thank you for putting needs before yours so let me put yours before mine. I have time off for a while s ofo please let me help you with this."
"It's just a lot of things all at once. its work, it's us trying and not succeeding for a baby, it's our wedding" I sigh
"I told you for our wedding if you want we can go to the justice of the peace. For us having a baby well, that will soon happen just let's not rush it. I know it's been a long time since we talked about it and started trying but it won't always happen overnight. As for work what is going on there?"
" My boss is an asshole, my coworkers are whinny ass pansies, I get treated like a work mule."
He nodded his head in understanding.
" I am sorry you're being treated like that angel, I am sorry that your boss is an asshole and your colleagues are whinny ass pansies." he apologized for things that he had no say over.
" Thank you so much for that"
He moves over and sits beside me and pulls me on to his lap and moves me around so I am facing him.
"Now let's talk about our wedding. You want it simple as do I. So how bout we go to the justice of the peace and marry or to a little chapel and marry?"
I thought about it for a bit
"Which chapel?"
He then lifted me in his arms I quickly grabbed his shoulders and he carried me to the bedroom and sat me on the bed then grabbed my laptop and walked over toes his shoes off and climbed into bed with me and logged on my laptop before browsing the chapels.
"Would you marry at Bella's Castle I mean its a B&B but it's very beautiful and they have weddings there as well?" I asked
He looked at me before he clicked on the link to view Bella's castle and this
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The picture appeared when he looked at it.
"It was built in nineteen o' two" he read
He proceeded to read all the details and then looked through the availability and clicked on the day we want to marry and seen it was available.
"How many people are you thinking?"
I counted the main people we wanted there
"I'd say fifty if not fifty-five that is for both of us. Feya is a definite" I tell him
He looked at me and kissed my forehead then went back to putting in all the information they needed to reserve the place for our wedding on that day.
"Alright baby it's done, we will marry at Bella's Castle," he said
Once he got he thank you for making the reservation and can't wait to hold your wedding here at Bella's Castle he closed the laptop after shutting it down then put it aside.
"Now for the whole ordeal of us having a baby. we will and can still keep trying till we have a baby, I need you to relax and allow me to help you and never hide things like this from me" he said
I nodded before I leaned over and kissed him softly as he caressed my face before holding it in one hand keeping me there as he deepened the kiss.
He made love to me that night and all my worries and things that caused my depression went right out the window thanks to my future husband.
