Adventures, Memories, and Everything in Between

the longest run-on sentance i have ever written

our love went from standing to walking to sprinting to you dragging me when my feet got tired and my lungs ached but i called it encouraging, but now i let go of your hand and im looking down to find scabs and scars on my knees and you liked my hair long so i cut it all off and you liked my hair purple so im gonna dye it all green, you might think this means that im over you but im hella not, but im gonna do all of the things i couldn't now as one last hoorah and the last thing i'll ever do for you is whisper my last goodbyes as i delete all of the photos and remember all our lies, with the lines of a song i wrote my last breakup playing their suck little games like melodies in the corners of my mind while i smile to tell mom that im fine and to tell myself that someday i will be but anyways, a plane flew over my head today while i was reading the same book that i have read four times instead of reading the 7 books on loss that i collected to fill up your absence and it made me think of you, and i wanted to tell you i love you but honestly fuck you for fucking me and then fucking me over, ya know but i do hope you find someone who has long hair just like you liked but if you come running back in july looking for the sweet broken purple girl who loved lilies and you, you are never going to find her so keep looking, little dreamer until your soul catches on fire and i'll keep on changing until you can't recognize me anymore and you'll find another girl with long hair, just like you liked and maybe she will teach you to love better than i did because if what we had was love then i don't wanna love anyone anymore because you sank your fangs into my heart and left bite marks and poison and it almost stopped beating but then i started living for me and not for you which i haven't done in 442 days as of April 3rd, which is today bu the way, and to be honest, im a romantic and when you pretended to care about what i was saying and then interrupted me to call me hot, that wasn't really too charming but god, when your hands were all over me and you promoted me to beautiful, i realized i would do anything to be beautiful for you and if that was the only way then so be it, and im sorry that i wasn't enough for you when you were more than enough for me, but its okay now because im enough for me, so basically what i am trying to say is thanks for teaching me a life lesson but screw you for shattering me in the process, and good luck finding another girl with long hair that will love you so much and let you use her and who will do anything to make you happy like i did and i hope most of all that you realize the hurricane that you started and left behind in your wake because the storm will be so beautiful and you will be there to see absolutely none of it, which im realizing now is probably for the best.