Adventures, Memories, and Everything in Between

aw yea, cabbages (this ones not about my ex! hooray)

ButteryDeath  YourAverageLiv you guys are the bestest.

to chip-

i feel like shit but im laughing my ass off at sending you the word "cabbage" with no context

👉😎👉

making new friends is cool.

its nice to have someone to
just play along and act dumb with cuz
you know im sad.
we can talk about harleys and cabbages
and how unbelievably un-sexy i am

but you make me laugh
and you cheer me up so
youre a good friend in my book.

honestly, you mean more to me than you even know.

whenever the world spat in my face,
only two of my close friends
cared to check on me frequently
and make sure i was okay.
i expected the people i called my best friends to at least care a little.
they ignored my texts and calls.

and then you came along.

honestly, its a really innocent friendship.
we play video games together a lot
and we chat about random stuff
and ask each other questions
and deep thoughts
and we played tennis once.

so to you, i might just seem like another silly girl who really needs to find friends.
but to me,
you really do mean a lot,
in a way i dont even fully know how to describe.
in a way that like,
you were there for me as basically a stranger,
when my best friends turned their back on me
when i needed it most.

so thank you.
sorry that was cheesy as hell.

to liv-

im feeling like shit but im receiving a text from you, asking if im okay after posting a dramatic and hella sad poem.

🥺👉👈

having old friends is also cool.

the fact that you have been here for me
since we were like, 3
is literally insane to think about.

i mean,
there is literally not a single person i would rather go get some ice cream with the windows down and music blaring on full volume while we screech as loud as humanely possible with.

NOT A SINGLE PERSON.

you have picked me up when i was down,
and lifted me higher when i was up,
and you continue to support me even though i am the biggest mess i have ever been in my life.

you're still behind me,
reminding me
of how beautiful and strong i am.

if it weren't for you,
im not sure id really believe it at all.
and i still only halfway believe you,
but honestly halfway is further than i have ever been.

when im with you
is the only time that i dont feel sick and tired.
its the only time all of the
bad thoughts and feelings go away.
and they never go away.

you give me purpose, and meaning, and you remind me of why i was made.

to love, and to live, and to adventure.

and you and i will do all three of those things, together.

for the rest of time.

my first friend, my lifelong friend, my sister and
probably my lesbian lover at this point.

i love you to the moon and back.

thank you for all that you've done, and will continue to do.

and good luck dealing with my bullshit for the rest of your life cuz you are not getting rid of me, ever.

and to all of my friends
that chose to ignore my texts and calls
when i really just needed you
more than ever,

i hope you are happy,
because you just lost someone who would have died for you.

so thanks for being in my life when you were,
but next year
im gonna keep the people that really matter,
and shed the ones who are temporary.

i miss you though.
i really did want to have a movie night like i said.
i really did just want to chat and send some memes every once in a while.
i really did just want some love.
its cool though.
i understand.

but thats why i have people like the ones i wrote this for.

they did watch movies with me.
and hang out with me.
and play games with me.
and chat with me.
and vent to me.
and let me vent to them.

but overall,
to everyone who has ever been in my life,
thank you.
without you, i wouldnt be who i am today.
and i wouldn't trade that
for the world.