Adventures, Memories, and Everything in Between

talking to an old friend

he said i'm not the same Arianne he used to know.
well yeah.
that's kinda the whole point.
but also not?

he said this because i told him that i dont eat as much as i i used to,
which used to be all the time and now it's like,
never
it's weird cuz i'd like to be hungry again

not eating wasn't exactly my idea of a new me.
it was more like
a confident and independent woman who is happy

like, i'm a little confused where that went wrong
but its whatever at this point

hopefully before you come back
i can get my shit together.

i would hate for you to see me like this.
and i said that before, i know,
but i swear its true.

this isn't the old me
or the one i want to become.
its a transition stage.

i dont want you to meet her.
she is afraid and doesn't know what the fuck
is going on.

all she knows is that she is a disaster