Adventures, Memories, and Everything in Between

strike me down

you promised to come home
you promised
you would
you have broken every promise
you have ever made to me but i still want to believe
you

you promised to come home but im not sure if im home to
you anymore, i hope
you can come back to me and i hope
you find something familiar but new.

you are going away to college soon. i wont be able to see
you until next year. a year is a lot of time. still, i hope
you still look the same. i know
you wont though. i will still hope that
you are still the same cute, funny, romantic
you that left me behind.

you said you wont forget about me.
you said you will always love me.
you said once, and i will never forget what
you told me,
you said "god strike me down if i dont love her"

i
im beginning to wonder
i dont want to think about it
i cant help but think about it
i always think about it
i always think about you
i always start my sentences with you,
i end them with you,
i begin with you
i end with you
every vein in my body bleeds you
every cell screams you
my lungs breathe you
my mental state fucking hates you,

and im beginning to wonder
if god is going to come and strike you down soon.

even though

i,

i hope he doesn't