The only Kiwi I'm not allergic to.

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"I... I'm fine JJ... I'm happy here and safe.'' I said trying to get past this and keep myself cool and calm. I didn't want to fight him, especially now and especially about my job.

"So you wont put your life on the line again?" he asked again. It's like he wants to fight me.

I felt my ears and face turn red from anger. So I turned around in my seat again "I'm FINE Jaxson. The danger is part of the damn job and I don't care about putting myself in danger anymore. Because if I have a chance to save someone's life I'll take that chance. So drop this stupid conversation and just enjoy your time with me." I screamed most of it. 

JJ looked at me a little hurt but I guess we can work it out. Mike was surprised and Harrison was silently looking at me. I didn't realize that he stopped the car. I looked out the window, we were parked in our parking spot outside our building.

I sighed and opened the door walking out of the car, "welcome home." I said as I shut the door with a bang walking around the car and into the building.

I was trying so hard to keep the tears in, why was this emotional? Was it really just because of what JJ said? I mean yea the job comes with putting your life on the line but I enjoy it with everything in my heart. I love this job. I pressed the elevator bottom and walked in, clicking on my floor's bottom. 

Right before the doors closed I heard JJ yell "Amy wait." but I didn't want to talk to him right now. I was too angry at him and I didn't want him to see me blow-up with anger.

As soon as the doors closed in front of me I broke down. Hot tears ran down my face. I shouldn't even be crying. I've been doing everything right, I've been doing my meditation everyday, I've been working on myself to shower without Harrison needing to sit outside the door for me not to freak out when I wash my head. I leaned my head on the mirrored wall of the elevator and let the tears run down my face. The ding sound of the elevator brought me back to reality, the doors opened. I wiped my tears and walked out down the hallway to my unit.

I dug through my bag looking for my keys, but the vibration of my phone stopped me from looking for the keys. I pulled it out, turned it on and saw it was Harrison,

"Hello?" I said with a low voice

"Babe? Are you upstairs?"

"Yeah" I said with a shaky voice.

"Do... Do you want some free time? Just to think? I can take the boys to down to Bondi"

"Yea... urm... yeah a little while being alone could do me good. Thank you..." I said sniffing.

"Yea okay...wait... are..are you crying?" he asked.

I didn't reply. I tried to hide it and I really did. I held my breath to stop the new hot tears from falling.

"Babe? Amy? Okay i'm coming up"

"No no Harrison... no please take the boys to Bondi... I already feel horrible for snapping at JJ.'' I replied quickly, letting a few more tears run down my face.

"Okay...okay honey calm down just relax... I'll take them to Bondi." he said calmly.

"Harrison? I'm sorry..."

"Babe you have nothing to be sorry for. I'll talk to him, don't worry. okay?"

"Okay... I'll prepare an early dinner."

"Okay. See you in one or two hours"

"Okay bye...love you."

"Love you too. Bye."

I dropped my phone back in my bag and quickly opened the door to my apartment, walking in and turning the lights on. I took a deep breath in and dropped my bag on the little stool we had by the door. I looked around the apartment to make sure everything was clean and tidy, nodding to myself as I walked into the kitchen and started getting the ingredients for a pizza ready.

I made the pizza and cleaned up the kitchen a little, I looked at the time and I decided to make myself some tea and just sit on the balcony until the boys came back.

So with my cup of tea and a light jacket over my shoulders I walked out on the balcony, I pushed one of the chairs we had outside closer to the table and sat down.

Today was cooler than yesterday, there weren't any clouds in the sky yet there was a cool breeze signaling the arrival of the winter season in Australia. For someone who grew up in a freezer called Canada, this isn't cold but somehow the breeze made me shiver. I brought up the cup of hot tea to my lips and slowly sipped on the hot liquid letting it warm my insides.

I stared out at the blue horizon, and the beautiful white waves crashing on the sand, the thoughts of earlier came to my head. I love JJ, he is my brother who I trust but the fact that he attacked me like that was cruel, it hurt me so bad, made me feel small and stupid. Like I didn't know how to take care of me.

I let myself get lost in my thoughts as I stared at the blue body of water in front of me. 

A/N 

Hey guys!! 

Hope you all are good! sorry for the super late update! 

Here is a short chapter! I am working on a few new chapters and they will be posted soon.