the girl with the guitar [glee/sam evans]

chapter 20: Prom Queen

"Here's your coffee and here's your breakfast sandwich." Violet got into the front seat of Kurt's car and handed him the food. Ever since Kurt transferred back to McKinley, Violet and Kurt decided that they should carpool together since it'd give them more time to talk and hang out. They didn't get to hang out as much anymore because Kurt had Blaine and Violet was helping out the Evans' with babysitting.

"Thank you thank you thank you." Once Violet got settled, Kurt asked, "So... what's the deal with prom? Do you have your dress?"

"I do, and I'd show it to you, but the girls are planning a prom fashion show this week before prom, so I'll just show you then. What about you? Buying or making?" Violet took a sip of her coffee.

Kurt grinned, "Making. I have this excellent idea for an Alexander McQueen inspired ensemble. You're invited to the final fitting with Blaine and Finn and my dad. That reminds me... I still need to ask Blaine to be my date."

"Well, I'm sure he'll say yes. I'm just excited to go to prom and just hang out with everyone and not think about these past couple of weeks for me. Too much has happened. Too much, I tell ya."

"Wait, you're not bringing a date?" Kurt asked confusedly.

"I mean the one person I wanna go with, I can't take, so there's that."

Kurt rolled his eyes, "Are you seriously hung up on Santana?" Violet started to shake her head.

"No no no. I've made my peace with that."

"Well... then who?"

"Sam." Kurt's eyes widened. "Um yeah... So after I figured out my feelings for Santana, it was like clarity. Like he's the only one I want to be with, but 1.) He can't afford prom and won't let me buy him what he needs and 2.) You were right. I need to figure out all of my baggage. I'm damaged, and he already has enough to worry about, and I just don't want to hurt him again." Violet looked down at her coffee. Sam's been through enough suffering, and she even caused part of that. She didn't know if she could forgive herself after fucking up that badly even if Sam already forgave her.

Kurt was trying to figure out what other baggage Violet could have now that the Santana saga was done. "Wait, are you talking about your mom? I thought you've accepted that?"

Violet scratched her neck, "Well new developments have emerged... and after 'Rumors' week 2 weeks ago... I realized that I wasn't over it. I mean she's supposed to be my mother, and no matter how old we are, I'm still her kid. I was stupid enough to think that if I locked my emotions away, that they'd just disappear."

"Wait... then what are the new developments?"

"Apparently, her and my dad have been going to family counseling and now she's ready to actually try..."

Kurt could tell she was hiding something, "There's something else. You're not telling me something."

"Please don't be mad." Kurt looked at her suspiciously. Violet quickly blurted out, "I auditioned for 'West Side Story' when I was in New York because my mother's choreographing, and I thought she'd be there so I could give her a piece of my mind, but she wasn't, and even though I retired from Broadway, it felt really good to be doing it on my own so I thought that maybe it was a mistake to actually quit Broadway and then I found out that I got a callback for Maria, but it's also the day that we're supposed to arrive in New York for Nationals, and I want to give 100%, but I also want to do this audition, and maybe I could actually rewrite my Broadway experience with my mother, but I'm also afraid that I won't be able to do it because I'm rusty and what if I'm just not good enough, and I just don't know what to do." Violet was practically out of breath by the time she finished her rant.