Untie my heart

Today is the day River

I woke up this morning sore, very, very sore. My dad was especially angry last night.

In all my years dealing with his abuse he has never used silver but last night he finally crossed that line. After an hour of kicks and punches he lost his cool and pulled out a silver dagger. He stabbed both of my thighs and sliced a large gash across my chest before giving up and going back to drinking.

It takes werewolves a long time to heal from injuries caused by silver and it took everything I had to act normal when I picked Hope up from the tree house. Even with my best efforts Hope could tell I was hurt but I told her not to think about it because this would never happen again, by this time tomorrow we will be on a train far away from his evil ass.

The rejection is taking a toll on my wolf, he is healing me slower than normal but we will be okay. As soon as Hope is safe and we are settled we can start to heal. I can't understand what the moon goddess was thinking mating me with Becca. Becca the girl who hurt me, who hates me, who spent our entire lives humiliating me and making me feel worthless. If she had not rejected me I may have rejected her, how could I build a life with someone who has treated me so badly for so long.

When I was younger, before I became so jaded I used to cry after each mean thing she said. When things got physical I would get so lost in depression wondering if I was really that useless, if being a rogue meant that I was disposable, disgusting, a waste of space. If it had not been for Hope I would have ended it all years ago, the social stigma of being a rogue even though it was through no fault of my own was too much for my young mind to cope with.

I shake my head, I have to clear my mind, today is the day, it's game time. After I drop Hope off at school I get all of our supplies ready, money in hand and I wait for the details on the meeting location from Gus. While waiting I walk around town, still getting side glances and still trying to shake the unease I feel from all of the extra eyes on me.

Becca had to tell everyone just how unwanted I am, that even my mate can't stand me, now I walk around like a freak show for her packs amusement.

I received the text from Gus telling me to meet him at an abandoned house way to close to royal land for my comfort. I texted back that it was too close but he does not reply. I waited about an hour before I called and left a voicemail. Finally 45 minutes before our meeting time Gus replies to my text telling me that's the meeting place and if I want the documents tonight I have to meet him in that exact location.

Alarm bells are going off left and right. I decide it's best to talk it out with my wolf, "dude what do you think we should do?"

A very weak wolf replies, "we won't survive another night with your dad, I am weak from the rejection and silver".

Fuck, fuck fuck is all I can think. "Can we shift if shit hits the fan?" I ask.

"I don't think so" is the reply I can hardly hear. I let my wolf go to the back of my mind to rest.

Okay well our options are death or go near royal territory. We won't cross the boarder, it will be fine. What's the worst that will happen? If the boarder patrols cross over to get me I can maybe use the ex mate bond to get away with just a beating. Honestly I don't think the boarder patrols will cross over to get a high school kid anyway, I should be fine.... okay decided, I text Gus and tell him I will meet at the abandoned house, what's the worse that can happen right, it can't be worse then death by my fathers hands....right...?