I DON'T CARE - Kai Parker

𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲

(warning) - graphical gore, mentions of suicide

Portland 23rd June - 1993

The forest was sectioned off with yellow / black police tape, "DO NOT CROSS" was written on the tape to signal that there was a crime that no body should mess with and let the cops deal with it.

Rumour has it that they had discovered a body and they called it a murder; every house around the neighbourhood was questioned including the Parker's household and they hadn't found any clues yet.

The body was headless, blood pooling around the body and where the head should be. Maggots were eating the dead body and there was large chunks of body missing where it had been eaten away from the flesh eating animals.

There was a horrible smell surrounding the body and the forest area; the smell of rotting meat, another words the smell of a rotting corpse -- Jackson's corpse.

Previously Kai had told Lizzie to keep her mouth shut and deny about witnessing his death or anything relating to finding out what really happened. From what Lizzie had worried about, people asking where she was during the night, it didn't happen and she was grateful about it.

She was scared of Kai and wondered if he'd kill her. Even though Kai was sexually attracted to her, he wouldn't care if he hurt her but he wouldn't want to kill her because deep down he did care about her.

Lizzie wished she could actually tell people and tell the truth - yet she did a crime because she lied to the police. She had a good point of lying to the cops but it still isn't a good thing to do, lie about murder that you clearly witnessed.

She was in deep shit, she and her Kai knew.

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Lizzie felt empty inside and didn't know what to do anymore -- she didn't feel like she was home anymore. She was traumatised from the gruesome murder of her ex boyfriend who she deep down still loved, she loved too easily.

Who has the power now? Of course Kai Parker did. He tore any reality and happiness she had left in her away from her and she felt empty inside and depressed. She felt like there was no end and she was going to die in a miserable life.

One day she wants to have a happy life and teach her children to live life to the fullest; something better than what their mother had. She wanted to fight back in the thoughts in her mind but she just couldn't, welcome to the bloody mind of Elisabeth Evans'.

She can't live like this anymore and wanted to end it all, she felt like she was going to fail her own best-friend Jo and her own kids. Every choice she did and wanted to do was her doings and she had no meaning of life anymore.

Dark and doesn't feel safe -- wishing to control her demons and not let the demons control her instead. In a dark, helpless place was making her weak and she did want to protect herself but Kai had made her weak and ruined her inside.

What if there is nothing after this? What if she was only in darkness and a hopeless world forever? Jo made her feel things that she didn't think was possible, she loved her and needed comfort. She loves her.

Everybody needed Lizzie and they believed she was the strongest girl in the world -- family is power -- whatever it takes to safe her mindset and make her a better being. The almighty Lizzie Evans', the greatest witch in history.

Her birth was a gift to the world and was a chance to take back everything that was lost, always and forever. She was the happiness in everybody's worlds, even if her family had left her. The twinkle in her eyes as she was born, a change to society forever.

Lizzie's whole body was freezing and tears gathered up in her eyes as she thought about her life, she loved her family but they left her to suffer. They started it and they left, they ran from it. Her family had built power and this neighbourhood was her home. Everything she could've wished for.

She felt worthless -- history taught her nothing. There is no power in love. Repeating the same cycles of people leaving her made her lifeless inside, she was used to it and didn't expect people to come back for her. They let her rot to death, no heartbeat to ring in everybody's ears as she walks by.

Her paranoid mind where nobody could be trusted, this is the world that you created and that she was born in a happy life and thrive with a happy family, with a lot of hope. To break anybody apart who decided to bury their power deep in soil.

She didn't know what version was real from fantasies and realities -- all she ever wanted was love and power. Don't you get it? She's the threat in her own little world and everybody was against her. Lizzie was another failure who was alone in the dark.

Making friends was a sense of control. Doesn't feel safe, wishing to control her thoughts in her broken mind. Friends took her out of her reality and it made her feel like she has a family. The Evans' family did make her feel loved but they all ended up leaving her in the end, all because she was weak.

Sobs and whimpers left her shaking lips, wind rustling through her hair as the moon shined down on her body in the park; moving forwards and backwards slowly and gently on the swing in the middle of the park.

She needed to feel something -- hope. She needed to have a family and the Parker family was becoming her own family but Kai was messing her mindset up and didn't give her hope. Family made her happy inside and bubbly, there must be something to save family and her demons inside.

It was weird that she liked going out in the middle of the night because it gave her peace and quiet -- to save her from herself. Time to think, time to gather hope. She cared too deeply for her family to only just leave her, what did she do wrong?

You can't put two things together again and expect it to be fixed again; a broken heart was not mendable, the two halves were far from being glued back together. Once you crush a soda can, you can't fix it again.

Forever broken.

Goosebumps were all over her skin and she didn't care if she froze to death or not, this was going to be the end of family and hope. All people gave her were pep talks but that wasn't enough to fix her lost hope.

Her throat was closing up as more broken sobs left her lips -- eyes darting over her surroundings, a sad laugh left her lips. She was so lost, she wanted to be free for once and forever. She needed to find the light that filled her darkness.

All her life she wanted a perfect family, she's come to believe that family is the greatest bond that could be ever created.

How the hell did she get here?

Everything stopped; her breathing. Squinting her eyes and her eyes stopped on a figure that she had saw the other day. Something was lurking in the darkness and was stalking her every movement.

It was the wolf that she had saw the other day, she didn't feel safe within the presence of the creature. Yellow beaming eyes were burning in her skin, she felt like she was going to die. Black fur was coated on the wolf, long-sharp teeth seeking out of it's mouth.

A loud howl left it's lips and it ran off into the night.

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