Because Of Her.

12 | I can't function.

Songs for this chapter :

Lost on you by Lewis Capaldi

Never enough by Kelly Clarkson

Miss you by Rolling Stones.

Throughout the whole night I couldn't sleep, my mind was wandering to the conversation, the reminder Alan bestowed upon me. I spent my night thinking about how I could get back my paintings from Liam's place. If it hadn't been because of Alan I am sure I would have lived in ignorance regarding the hard work we put in those canvases. Why would I even have to put those canvases at his place? 

Simple, because you trusted him. You didn't know a day like today would come. 

My subconscious says and in a way I could agree with her. The sole purpose of putting those paintings at his place wasn't because it will be easy for me to carry them in his car. It was because I trusted him; I believed his place was mine as much as his. I thought I wouldn't have to be worried about it because in a way those things are with me. Safe and sound. Even when physically they're in his room but I knew I could trust him. 

If only I knew how wrong I was thinking his place is any better, I would never have given him those paintings. The reason why to this day I didn't even think of them is because it was with him but now after a week I realize those things aren't safe with him. He was never safe. 

Waking up next morning with exhausting eyes and a very anxious mind I force myself to get ready and meet Amy in the kitchen, preparing us a breakfast. 

"Good morning." She says and slides me a coffee mug. I greet her back and after that we quickly finish having our breakfast. She helps me in cleaning the place and around noon we leave for our job. I work with a much disoriented mind because my thoughts are racing wildly. I had to exchange my position with Jake so I won't mess with the orders. Taking orders wasn't that easy either but I managed. By the end of my shift, I sit and chew on my lips. 

Alan called and informed me that today he will come to my place. I was okay with it but then he reminded me about the paintings again and now here I am with a troubled head. 

God, what should I do?

How should I go and fetch my stuff from his place? This morning I thought to tell Amy so she could accompany me to Liam's place and I didn't have to be alone but then I realized how much of a bad thought it is. She hates Liam immensely and now what he did, she loathes him and if I would tell her to go with me. I know she would be ready but I also know she won't keep herself controlled if she saw his face. Last time she nearly threw a stone at his car who knows seeing him face to face she does something which could be much fatal. I don't want her to get in trouble for me. Her temper is one thing which sometimes is hard to have a control on. She manages to control it around me, for me but when someone messes with the person she cares...well then no one can stop her. 

This is why I resigned the thought of telling her, I know we promised to never lie to each other again which is why I would tell her after I manage to get the paintings. But then the question arises again, how? 

Drake. 

Yes, I could ask him. He could accompany me but will it be alright? I am going to drag him into my mess again. As much as I told myself I would keep him off my problems but here yet another comes and I need his help. Those four or maybe five canvases I can't take them out from Liam's apartment alone. I need someone who could give me a helping hand, someone who owns a car, space enough to settle those paintings without damaging our hard work. 

I could ask him. I am sure he won't say no. Taking my phone out I dial his number. It rings five times before he picks it.

"Hello?"