Because Of Her.

54 | I am a stupid boy.

Heyoo!! I know, I know I am so fucking late and it's all due to my exams that happens to be popped out of nowhere, giving us a surprise. So I was studying my ass off, still is and didn't get time to check the app—hell even my phone properly. I should've informed you guys but writing a chapter was least of my worries and since weekend is here I managed a little time and wrote this one for you.

I'm sorry to keep you guys waiting for this long, trust me it wasn't my intention but finishing University and getting my degree is my number one priority as some of you can relate. I literally wrote this chapter in the mid of my exams study and I hope you'll wait a little longer since October is the month when I'll be free from everything. Till then bear with my tardiness towards updating. 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠ര⁠ ⁠ʖ̯⁠ ⁠ര⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ

Evanna Genevieve Austen.

The name given by my parents the minute I was born and held straight to my Dad hands. They already planned the names way before finding about whether they're going to have a girl or boy. When I grew up I ask them about why they choose that name as one should know the meaning behind their name, the significance it holds and my parents answered that they named me Evanna because I was a fighter since start.

My Mom found out around five months in pregnancy that I was going to complicate the process of birth. There was a chance that either I could live or my mother and although Dad was already afraid and told my mother to let me go since he couldn't bear her loss—my mother still pushed herself through the day I was born. I don't hate my Dad for choosing my mother over me; when I was matured enough to understand these things he told me how he still regret for letting me go without any conscience. I told him numerous times if I was at his place maybe I would done the same thing because my Mom is the love of his life and I was unknown to him at that point, basically someone who haven't even born but is a way to kill his wife.

But that didn't happen and they get to name me—Evanna because I was a fighter for my mother and for myself and I was sent as a blessing to them. God is Gracious another meaning of my name. My middle name is something that they later gave me due to how I was quite literally a white wave in their lives.

But as I really look into my life and how much I have stood up to my name—let's just say I really disappoint not them but me too.

I should change my name and make it Evanna Bad Decisions Austen because I think I've made one last night when I agreed to Selena. I was extremely guilty and feeling regret over whatever that happened before she arrived that I couldn't think much when she approached me with her proposal to being her spy for Liam and said yes.

That was a very blunt and sudden move from someone who cautiously turns her head back and forth while crossing the road but I literally launched myself in the midst of running traffic and now there's no going back to my safe place which was never to step in between first place because now I have to cross the road while saving myself to not get hit by something that could leave me broken and shattered.

Throughout the night Selena was prepping me up, training me how to be her perfect spy. She decided to spend the night and instead of how Amy and I used to share bed during sleepover she and I shared the bed instead. I asked her what I can do to be able to start talking about her to Liam because I can't just bring her out of blue. Liam is good with finding about truth especially mine; he will find odd as to why I am bringing Selena suddenly so to not get caught by him we needed a plan.

And Selena had one—actually several steps and the first one include to be his friend.

Yes...his friend.