Because Of Her.

80 | Jump Scare.

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I had an idea that I won't be waking up with Liam beside me next morning. So, when I woke up and didn't find him, I wasn't surprised. What happened last night might have rushed back when he woke up and he ran away the second he felt like I was in heavy sleep.

I am awake as of one hour ago and since then I have done most of the chores. I didn't shower yet since I decide to go through with my presentation, rehearse it a bit and when it is time to leave for college. I will shower and leave so I remain fresh. If I shower right now, I will sweat myself as I go through scenario of what will happen when I take the center of podium. So, it's better to sweat now and shower later.

I enact how I will present myself, scrolling through the laptop at the same time for wedding inspiration from Pinterest. I write the ideas on my journal and pick up my presentation paper as I stutter through some words during my recitation. I put my pen in my mouth out of habit and stare at the space Liam was sleeping. It's like five times I watched it, stared, thought it over before I snap out and get back to my work.

I will be lying if I didn't look through for any note, he might have left like he did one time. But I didn't find any. I am worried because I just wanted to ask him if he is okay, did he sleep or not, did he want to talk or maybe wanted to eat something. Whatever he wanted but he didn't give me the opportunity to even provide him anything.

The Liam I saw last night was a Liam I have never seen since I know him. He was vulnerable, open to discussion, was sharing about his life and let me comfort him instead of pushing me away. I felt that maybe he started to feel the kind of comfort he felt with Selena one time. I mean obviously if she was here, she would have helped him much better right? As she knows what Liam was talking during his nightmares, what those people were doing or not doing. What sort of scenario he was stuck in?

Dad, Mom, Jennifer and Finn.

The four people he brought up in his nightmares. I know his parents were horrible and last night listening his painful moaning it was clear; they were beating him. I mean that's the only conclusion I could come up too. As he has mentioned I am not shocked if he was a victim of child abuse. Beating physically and abused verbally by his parents. But what was the role of Jennifer and Finn.

If I mention these names in front of Selena, will she tell me? Should I even tell her that Liam went through nightmare because I know she will ask about the update on what she has missed? Hell, she is hell bent on having Liam in Florida but I didn't bring it up. As I think it over intensively—I know why I didn't say anything to Liam. It's not that I don't want him there. Obviously his presence won't affect me much, I've been working with him in this presentation and I don't have a problem. But —

It's the fact that certain someone is going to be there. Selena will be with Liam and how she said wedding memories of them together was memorable and special. What if it does help them?

It's the reason why I didn't bring it in front of Liam because I don't want him with her.

These thoughts shouldn't come in my head but now they are overpowering my thoughts of helping Selena. I don't want to help her get Liam completely instead I want Liam. But I wanted him in a way I am sure he won't break my heart again. I want him to show me that I am the only one and Selena won't cause any problem between us.

But the other part of me which is Selena's friend has different side. Although her power is not stronger yet the frequent reminder sets me off.

I jump up in my own skin when I hear my phone ringing. I pick it up seeing its Amy.