Because Of Her.

72 | I know everything.

//oh my gawd, guys!! I watched Endless Love again (the old one) and I am such an idiot for not noticing it before. I found Evanna look alike. Seriously young BROOKE SHIELD was so fucking pretty and exactly how I imagined Evanna when I brought her into the fictional world//

Do tell me if you agree with me or picture her like someone else.

E V A N N A

"Are you not talking to me because of what I said about Drake and you?" I ask Amy in the morning. It's almost time for college and we are preparing to leave but since we woke up, did our morning routine and prep up for the day—she is not being vocal. As if she is avoiding me.

"What? No. I already told you I don't care about anything related to him." She speaks as if the idea is so absurd.

"Then why the—face?" I can't even comprehend the look of her face. It's been worried and sad then complete neutral. It is confusing because I do not like seeing her this way.

"My face is all right okay?" She looks at me when she says it and her eyes roam over my face until I am seeing the same look that she is giving all morning.

"There it is! The same look. What is going on?" I ask but she doesn't reply. Instead shakes her head and leaves the apartment. Sighing I grab my bag and follow her. Last night our friends were here and we taped the gifts that they shopped for the wedding. There were tons of things that needed to be wrap but they hold it for me to see and give my approval before tapping it in wrapping paper.

The wrapping part was okay because all of them were gushing about what I miss and what they thought of buying and couldn't due to price—it was after that when the limelight fell on me and they asked about Vermont. I had to acted like it wasn't a big of deal and I went for work purpose which was done. Two of them did let go of the topic but Selena stayed in my room last night, decided to sleep on my bed and prodded me tell her everything.

The guilt literally consumed me that I didn't talk to her face to face and lied to her by switching off my bedroom light so she couldn't see the way my troubled and guilt face was on. It was hard really hard to lie, she was enthusiastic to see Liam and witness the changes that I obviously lied. I couldn't tell her that I didn't do what she asked and instead went second base with Liam.

Since yesterday guilt has suffocated me, my chest is heavy with that feeling and I am not able to concentrate on any task. But I did notice the change in Amy's way of looking at me.

I don't know if I am being paranoid but what if she has figured something is off with me by seeing the way I was the odd one out in the group. I was absent minded and avoided every opportunity to stay near Selena until she slept in my room last night. It was okay yesterday but this morning, she is not even looking at me properly and whenever she does—it's always when I catch her looking at me with troubled expression.

The distance between us is much as we walk to college. I didn't know I will be having this issue too, along with facing Liam and acting okay in front of Selena. I've tried last night in the latter case but the former one is what the most trickiest. I don't know how I am going to face him and act as if everything is normal. More importantly now we are in New York, whatever personality, the way we were around each other in Vermont—that all is going to change. The New York Liam will might make this into a bigger thing or maybe doesn't acknowledge it at all. Whereas New York Evanna just has to wait and see because her act will go according to how Liam will act.

We arrive to college and in fear of running into Selena in broad daylight I head towards my classroom but don't exactly enter inside due to the fear of seeing Liam. It's like suddenly every place is not safe for me to live in.