Because Of Her.

23 | You love me?

Songs for this chapter : 

You're somebody else by Flora Cash

Poison and wine by Civil wars

Ivy by Frank Ocean

Wires by Athlete.

"Why did you do that?" I repeat myself when he doesn't answer.

"You don't have to worry about it. It's been taken care off." He tells me and I frown.

"What?"

"No one is going to follow you around."

"Wha...wait you fought with him because he was the one who was following me around?" I ask flabbergasted. Noah was the one who was following me around?

"No...yeah, fuck! You don't have to know about it okay."

"Yes I do have to know about it because it concerns me. Your friends were following me around and you're saying you beat them which equals to now they won't do it but about you huh? They might not do it now but you're taking up their post now. You stalk me what about it?" I never once see his friends around me sure multiple times I met Ethan but it's all coincidental. He comes at my café and it's a place for people, I meet him in college and today in library. These all are public places. If he was stalking me around he wouldn't show his face to me as for his other friend I never saw them either. Mostly Liam, I saw him everywhere I go and he has the audacity to portrait the he fight around for my well being.

"I do not stalk you and don't you fucking dare to change the topic. What were you doing with him?" He demands and my attention is taken away by some people who are shouting near bus stop. I look back at Liam then to that bus stop.

"That...that night those goons did you send them after me?" I don't know where that came from.

"What?"

"We had a fight, a huge one and I decided to leave you. It was supposed to be end there but then I met with that accident and you saved me. You saved me from those men and I gave you a chance. Was it all for that because you didn't know how to have me back so you decide to frighten me like that and have me at my low?"

Tears blur my eyes as I look at him. He looks astounded and shifts back as if doesn't believe what I say.

"Ho-how can you think that I-I would do that you? To stoop that low, to let you go from something like that."

"Because I don't know what's real or not when it comes to you." I cry and on instant he is close to me.

"You know what is real Rose open your eyes and see it yourself. Dammit. I would never do something like that to you, to harm you or let anyone harm you. I know it's hard for you to see the reality after the shit I made you go through but please don't say that you don't know the real me. I was at my absolute real regardless of that fucking bet. I never once lie to you about who I real am." He cups my face and brings us closer, closer than I shouldn't allow him.

"Please just one chance...one chance to let me show you that it's you only you. Why would I be here to you every chance I get like a mad man if I am not into you? I am going through hell Rose and I know you are too, let's end our misery and let me make it up to you." He begs and I notice the way his voice cracks.

I have seen him cracking many times mostly after our fight when he comes to apologize and he say something similar like this every time and like a fool I used to forgive him and gave him his one last chance.

"The numerous amount of chances I gave you is the amount of pain I gave myself too. I didn't just give you chances I gave myself pain too. That is what I get for believing that you could change and will do better next time. What do I even get? Tears, pain, hurt, anger...if that's how loving you would be like..."