EXES AND OH'S

5AM

I got awakened by the sensation of something or someone delicately tracing the soft edges, dips and shallows of my face.

I struggle as I will my eyes to open, still feeling a tad too tired to wake up.

"Is it really you?" I hear someone softly say. 

Still a little disconcerted and groggy, I finally open my eyes, my lids fluttering as I let my vision adjust to the darkness. And after a second I see Levi lying sideways right next to me, his face just a few inches away from mine. I can feel his breath brushing my mouth and the tip of my nose. He runs his index finger along my eyebrows, cheekbones, the bridge of my nose, jawline, lips. It's like he's trying to familiarize—or memorize—every little detail of my face.

"Or am I just dreaming?" He asks, softer than a whisper. 

I snuggle closer to Levi and delicately cup his cheek with my hand, then run my fingers through his soft hair as I stare longingly back at him. I sigh and wish for this moment to be a dream, and for me never to awaken ever again. This is just too beautiful and sweet of a dream to pull out of and bring myself back to my nightmarish existence.

"It's me." I answer Levi with a small smile. He might still be a little drunk and languid from all that alcohol in his system for him not to know or realize that this is really me... and that he's not just imagining it. It really shatters me, seeing him so broken and despairing like this.

Levi gently places his hand on the side of my face too, his thumb delicately stroking my cheek. I close my eyes and tilt my head sideways to kiss his palm. "I missed you, Levi... so fucking much." I softly utter against his hand as tears start to roll from my eyes down to my pillow.

"I missed you, too." His reply. Levi gently turns my face to his, already leaning down to press his lips to mine. Without thinking, I reach up for his nape and kiss him back passionately. 

His lips, breath and skin feels so warm against mine. I'm reeling from all the emotions sitting at the back of my heart and head — those emotions that I've tried so fucking hard to suppress and hold off to retain the littlest sanity that's still left of me. But they all came tumbling down uninhibited as I felt Levi's soft lips on me again. It's sending me to a dangerous high, but I don't care. I've got Levi's arms around me, holding me close and tight, and I know he won't let me fall from this staggering height.

He hovers on top of me after a second, already yanking up his shirt and throwing it on the side of the bed.

I draw in a sharp breath and snap my eyes shut as Levi starts to trace his lips from the back of my ear down to the bottom of my neck. I claw my fingers onto his bare back, engulfed with the familiar whirlwind of sensation he's stirring from inside me.

Levi reaches for the hem of my plain white shirt and pulls it over my arms and head, then mindlessly throws it on the floor. He presses his warm mouth on my clavicle, and it just sent goosebumps all over my arms and legs. He slips his hand underneath me as we continue to kiss, and I arch my back as I help him unclasp and remove my bra off from my shoulders and arms.

I whimper as Levi's lips and tongue grazed and wandered around my chest, breasts and ribcage. "Keep going," I beg through closed eyes, my breathing erratic as he left a trail of soft kisses along my sternum.

He brings his mouth down the space below my belly button, and with one swift move, he pulls down my white cotton panties and claims me with his mouth.

I tightly grasp my fists onto the blanket, my back bowed and curved upwards as he went down on me, his tongue circling around my soft bud. I try so hard to stay steady, until I couldn't handle it any longer. I push Levi's head away from the insides of my thighs as the sensation intensifies, but he just keeps on going, fighting and relishing my sweet protests.

Levi kneels up all of sudden, then grabs for my waist and pulling me towards his groin. He quickly strips off his boxers and hovers back on top of me. I respond to his urgency by wrapping my legs around his waist, and with one swift move he inches himself inside me.

We both moan and cry out as Levi gently and easily thrusted into me. I push my hips up, meeting him with his every move.

Levi nuzzles my neck, then lightly bites and sucks on my earlobe as he flexes his lips deeper into me — slowly, deliciously, again and again. I bring up my legs further, allowing him to go deeper on a more unabated pace.

"Do you still love me?" Levi asks, looking deep into my eyes while he continues to move leisurely on top of me.

"Always." I nod and whisper against his lips. I grab for his nape, and we kiss fervently again.

We're both already panting and breathless, reveling in the bask of our bodies moving in unison, under the same beat and rhythm, our lips and tongues in harmony.

Levi wraps his arms around my back and rolls me on the bed so I'm on top of him.

I start to move, easing him in and out of me. I tip my head back, high with the throbbing pleasure that's building up inside me. It didn't take long before I feel that sweet, familiar euphoria that binds my flesh to his. I moan loudly as my body takes over, coming apart as the intensity of my orgasm flooded and engulfed my entirety.

His hand tightly grasped on my waist, the other around my back, clenching and pushing himself deeper into me as he held me close to him, my chest against his.

The world around us seems to stand still as we make love — the chaos finally gone, everything falling into quiet and peace as our bodies move in the darkness. Only the silver moonlight and lights from the skyscrapers and tall buildings of the New York skyline coming through the huge glass windows illuminated our shadows and silhouettes. It feels surreal, even more beautiful than a dream.

Levi starts to thrust himself inside me briskly and relentlessly, low grunts and groans escaping from the back of his throat. "Fuck, I'm about to cum!" He breathes, closing his eyes as he's about to reach climax.

I flex, grind and ease my hips against Levi's. I too, am reveling the fullness of his possession.

Both of us cry out at the same time, me softly calling for Levi's name as I peak into another excruciatingly intense orgasm. I watch Levi come apart underneath me. He gasps and lets out as he thrusted one last time, feeling every inch of me as he cums hard.

Everything fell into a stupor. All I can hear is the weaving of our hard and heavy breaths.

I carefully and gently get off from Levi after a minute, rolling down beside him on the bed. 

He turns to face me, and presses his lips onto my bare shoulder. "I love you," he whispers against my skin, still panting. He let out a tired yawn, and moments later, he's fallen back asleep again.

I let out a breath, reaching for the blanket and pulling it over to my chest. I lay down sideways in the opposite direction, away from Levi. I look at the digital clock on top of his bedside table and check on the time — a few minutes past 5AM. 

Fear struck me as realization started to sink in. A few more hours from now, and this dream is finally over. I'll be awakened again into my grim reality. I close my eyes and allow myself to go back to sleep as Levi wounds his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him, his front pressed tight against my back.

A lump forms in my throat as I try so hard to suppress my tears, but they came and flowed down uncontrollably anyway.

Please, just let me sleep. I don't want to wake up.

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Author's Note:

Just one last one. 😢💔

Also, hope you got to listen to the song! I heart Amber Run so much 🥰

Thanks for reading!

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