Emily's Secret (Jemily)

Chapter 37

JJs POV

Kenna stayed home this week, she had become dependent on the oxy so it was hard at first, she became agitated quickly and was waking up throughout the night with cold sweats, it was rough like really rough I know we both were tired with it all but it's been a week now, Sunday again and she is going back to school tomorrow, she is doing better started feeling better on Friday,

"How you feel?" I ask her as I was making lunch for the both of us

"Better, a lot better" she chuckles

"I'm glad" I smile and finish up lunch making us both a plate and sitting down on the couch with her

"Just so we are clear, you still come straight back home after school" I tell her, it's not like I can actually ground her by taking her phone, I still need a way to get ahold of her if needed so this was my next best option

"JJ that's not fair" she protest

"Oh I think it is, you go to school and come straight home afterwards Kenna, no staying with Grant" I say and she sighs

"Fine" she says and we continue eating our lunch,

"Thank you" she says when we finish and I take her plate out to the kitchen,

"You're welcome love" I say and put our dishes in the sink to be washed later,

"What do you want to do today?" I ask

"Can we go shopping?" She ask

"I'm pretty sure if I ground you that means no leaving the house but I love shopping so let's go" I chuckle and she smiles as we go get dress and get in the car to go shopping

"What are you looking for?" I ask as we start driving

"I want to get some more jeans, and a jacket" she says and I nod

"Sounds good" I say and we pull up outside of the mall,

She got her jeans and A jacket plus a pair of shoes and we stopped at one of the food vendors to get a pretzel

"Hey JJ?" She ask

"Yea?"

"Why don't you want to go back to work?"

"I just- it's not the same without your mom and I'm. It sure I'm ready to be there without her" I explain

"You know that's how I felt about the house and your room" she says

"But I realized after I did the drugs that she is gone and we are never going to stop thinking of her but it will get easier, I mean I love and miss her so much but I have you and you're like my mom" she says and I smile

"You're right, all of it. I miss her so much but I can't let that stop me from doing everyday things, maybe one day I will go back but I'm not too sure" I say and she nods and we finish our pretzel and head back to the car to go home,

Once we get to the house she went to her room to put her things away while I cleaned up the kitchen

"Hey mom, JJ. I mean JJ, I'm sorry" Kenna says coming down the steps

"It's okay" I smile

"What's up?" I ask

"Do we have any extra hangers?" She ask

"Yea In the closet next to the bathroom" I say and she nods running upstairs

"Thank you" she yells down and I chuckle putting the dishes away,

When I walked upstairs she was on her bed on her phone

"Who you texting?" I smile sitting down with her

"Grant, since someone decided I couldn't stay anymore" she smiles

"Wow that someone sounds like a bitch" I chuckle

"No, she's actually really nice and the best person that I could have in my life, I wouldn't want anyone else to step in as my mom and I love her, so no, not a bitch but the opposite" she says and brings tears to my eyes

"Oh kenna" I say and pull her into me

"I love you too and I'm more than happy that I can be a mother figure in your life" I say and she hugs me back

"Does this mean I get to call you mom? Well not mom because my mom died, but what about Momma?" She asked and looked up at me

"Of course, I would love for you to call me Momma. I love you Makenna" I say again, I never thought that she would look at me like her mother but I'm glad she does, and that she knows I'm never leaving

"Good, now you can't die because I can't lose two moms" she laughs

"God I love your humor, it's a little scary" I laugh and she smiles

"I'll let you get back to texting your boyfriend" I joke and go to my room to shower,

I'm glad kenna wants me to be her mom, it really is the greatest privilege,

Makennas POV

I really am excited that JJ is okay with me calling her Momma, I can't call her mom because well I have a mom, I was texting Grant now to tell him I couldn't stay with him any this week

Grant❤️

Kenna: Hey, I just wanted to say I'm sorry but I can't stay with you any this week....
Grant:what why?"
Kenna:JJ grounded me basically
Grant:She can do that? And why?
Kenna:yea she can do that lol, and I messed up with something, I don't feel like talking about it
Grant: okay, does this have anything to do why you weren't here last week?
Kenna: Yea
Grant: Okay well I miss you, and I'm here for you
Kenna: I miss you too and I know, I'll see you tomorrow for sure
Grant: Can't wait❤️

I don't ever want Grant finding out about the Ryan thing. He wouldn't understand and would look at me completely different if he knew. I put my phone on charge and caught up with some assignments for school before taking a shower and climbing into bed for the night, tomorrow is a big day, my first day back at school and I have to tell Ryan I don't want any part of the drugs anymore, here we go

Till next time ❤️