Emily's Secret (Jemily)

Chapter 43

JJs POV

Just a  few days after the night everyone had came over here, Kenna is at school now and I was going around picking up the house a little, just the usual sweeping and moping,

I have been thinking about getting a dog, I mean I'm by myself basically the entire day. It's just going to add a lot more cleaning.

I was interrupted from my cleaning by Derek stopping by

"We should talk" he says and I nod handing him a mug and we both sit on the couch

"What's up?" I ask

"I think you should come back to work" he says and I chuckle

"Derek" I say

"Just hear me out" she says and I nod motioning for him to continue

" I know you miss Emily and I know that it's difficult to be at the office" he starts

"Derek you don't know," I sigh

"Maybe not like you but I lost her too, she was my best friend and I didn't protect her" he says

"This is about you, you're here all day by yourself. Going from being an active field agent to sitting at home by yourself all day and...... I haven't told anyone this so don't say anything but Savannah is pregnant" he says and I smile

"I love that you care but I'm okay for now, and Derek that is wonderful! Congratulations" I smile giving him a hug

"Thank you, I just wish Emily were here" he says and I nod

"You're staying with the team right?" I ask and he hesitates

"I don't know" he admits

"Savannah works long hours and this job is dangerous" he says and I nod understanding where he is coming from

"I just don't know yet, I will do what I need to do for my family" he says and I smile

"I'm sure when the time comes you'll make the right decision" I smile

"Thank you JJ" he says

"Anytime"

"And... I still think you should come back. Your job is still there" he says

"I know, Hotch told me a few times. I just don't think I'm ready for that" I say

"Understandable, just think about it" he says

"I will"

We talked a little longer before Savannah had called and he had to go.

I got back to my cleaning and finished everything and next was Kenna's room, she keeps her room clean and I don't do anything in there anyway, all I was going to do was replace the trash in her bathroom.

Only this time something stuck out a little more. A box has fallen on the ground so I bent down to pick it up.

It was a pregnancy test. I looked around for the test itself and couldn't find it. Could she actually be pregnant? And why didn't she come to me if she thought she was. I too. The trash downstairs and kept the box out. I decided to not freak out about it yet until I have something to freak out about. She would be home in a few hours anyway and we could talk then

Makennas POV

I had Oakley buy me a pregnancy test yesterday and I hadn't had the chance to take it yet, okay well maybe I had the chance to take it I just didn't. I'm scared. I mean I'm not ready to be a mom and Grant is not ready to be a dad. If it does end up where I am pregnant I'll go through with it either way. I was going to take the test this morning but I was running late so just left the box behind not thinking of it and just grabbed the test heading to school.

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"Well?" Oakley ask as soon as I get out of my car

"I didn't take it" I sigh

"Why?" She ask and I shrug

"We'll come on" she says pulling me along and into her dorm

JJs POV

Kenna was to arrive home any minute now and I needed to talk to her about what I found this morning.

"Hey momma" she says coming in with Oakley behind her

"Hey babes" I smile

"How was school?" I ask her. They were In their last month of school now as a freshmen

"Good,  finals are almost over thankfully"she says

"That's good" I say and she goes to walk upstairs with Oakley

"Hey Kenna come her hun" I say and Oakley goes up to her room and she comes over to the Couch and sits down with me

"Want to explain this?" I ask showing her the box that I had found

"I- I thought that I could be pregnant" she says quietly

"Why? I thought you guys used protection" I say and her face gets red

"We did, but I was late and I'm never late and I was freaking out thinking I was pregnant" she says

"Did you take the test?" I ask and she nods

"Yea, but it was negative" she says. Phew,

"Okay, come here"I say and motion for her to get closer and I bring her into a hug

"Why didn't you come to me" I ask

"I didn't want you to be disappointed in me" she says  and I sigh

"I'm not disappointed, I promise. I'm just glad you're okay" I say rubbing her back

"I love you" she says

"I love you too, now get upstairs" I say and she nods going up with Oakley.

Is it bad I'm glad she isn't pregnant? I mean she isn't ready for that and quite frankly I'm not ready to be a grandmother. I mean she is only 16. Guaranteed Emily was 15 when she had Kenna and they both turned out great. Speaking of that. Since Emily's died we haven't even heard from Elizabeth since her funeral and when I met with the lawyers about Emily's money.

You think she would want to be there for her granddaughter but I guess not. Kenna doesn't let it bother her too much, I guess since she wasn't around much growing up either.

I went ahead and decided to take a bath tonight with a glass of wine, I started the bath added some bubbles and slowly lowered myself into the tub,

It was nice and relaxing something that I haven't done in a while. Once I was done I got out and put one of Emily's outfits on and went to say goodnight to the girls

"I'm heading to bed now, don't stay up too late. Love you" I say kissing both of their heads, I am also glad Kenna has a friend like Oakley, I always imagined myself as the mom that all the kids could come too and be comfortable with and I'm glad Oakley sees that in me

"We won't, love you too" she says and turn back to their phones and I go back to my bed.

Till next time ❤️