Those Ocean Eyes and That Charming Smile

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Feeling my feet lift off the floor, I make my way to the door with Tony following out and walking to the main part of the training room. He breaks off and heads to the left towards the group with his friends and some trainees while I walk to the right over to the arena Sam, Bucky, and I have been using for today for our breaks. I plop down on the mats and drop my shoulders to start bouncing my knee and playing with my fingers to get my mind off of everything that could go wrong. As I sit, overthinking, messing with my fingers, trying to crack them, and picking at my nail beds, Sam looks over with a smile and starts to walk over but stops in his tracks when he sees my nervous state. He walks backwards to keep an eye on me and blindly pats Bucky on the shoulder, interrupting his conversation with Steve. At first, Bucky shrugs him off but when Sam leans in to tell him something while pointing at me, Bucky whips his head around and immediately jogs over with a worried expression.

"Doll? Are you okay?" Bucky asks as he lowers himself to sit next to me

"Yeah." I breathe as I still play with my hands. "All good."

"That's convincing." He tries to joke but fails and his awkward laughter stops when I shake my head and refuse to look at him when I am trying to calm my breathing but failing as I feel it getting faster and out of control "Y/n, what's wrong?" He asks when he starts to get concerned

"I can't." I whisper out and swallow as I drag my frantic eyes to his

"Can't what?" He probes softy

"Can't do this!" I whisper shout and look at my hands where understanding crosses Bucky's face and he lifts his hand to place on my shoulder then slides it across my shoulders, scooting himself closer so our thighs touch

"Come here." He goes to pull my body closer to the side of his chest but I place my hands on his sides and push him away, not wanting to be touched

"No, stop." I rush out in a breath. "Please." I whisper

"Okay." His face falls slightly but he hides his hurt in a nod and moves his hand back to my left shoulder after seeing that was a safe and okay area to put it. "I'm sorry." He apologizes and I wave him off before looking up to Sam and Steve who have worried faces as they make their way over to us

"No." I let out a small gasp and shake my head that makes them stop. "Don't let them come over here." I beg Bucky

"Who?" He looks over at his friends and shakes his head subtly with whatever expression I can't see but it works when the guys back up a little hesitantly but eventually turn around and walk to the other side of the room. "Better?" He asks

"Thank you." I nod my head and look at everyone else in the room where I feel a heavy weight on my stomach and it's making me nauseas. "I have to get out of here." I mumble and stand but with Bucky following. "I have to get out of here." I repeat more urgently when I begin to feel the tears pool

"Okay, okay." He stops my shifting softly when I try to find another exit that isn't blocked but I fail and blink my tears away as I grind my teeth. "I'll get you out of here." He promises

I look into his eyes to find promise and protection and instantly feel safer and calmer with him around so nodding my head, he slides his arm around my shoulders and walks me to the exit of the training room. Before we do make it to the doors, Bucky stops Steve who is walking with Sam and whispers something in his ear while still holding me by the shoulder. Steve looks at me with a concealed worried expression and nods, letting us leave. Bucky looks down and smiles softly, as he opens the door for me and leads me down the hallway a little before making a left into an empty office. He softly shuts the door with the click of the lock sliding into place and he turns on the light so we can see each other.