It's been a few days since I shifted into Sam and Thor's body. After that amazing magical training session, we all ate different breakfast and lunch foods- well, lunch for the team and breakfast for Bucky and I. It was a pretty relaxing day with no missions or assisting the NYPD or SWAT with certain missions they have because that happens more often than you would think with the amount of people trying to make up some weird concoctions that turn people to lizards or try to harness Thor's powers by standing outside with a tinfoil hat and the skeleton of an umbrella when it's raining. Tony also made Bucky and I pick Peter up from school and bring him back to the tower for 'internship duties' which was just Peter carrying around boxes in the lab all day but he doesn't care, he just happy to be in the tower and out of his house, he loves May but sometimes, she can get on his nerves about college and relationships from what he said.
Like all parents.
The next few days flew by with nothing to do which was really weird and abnormal for us so Tony and Steve have been watching HYDRA closely to see if they try anything. They haven't attempted much of anything and have been staying pretty deep underground but they still make us nervous, especially Bucky. Speaking of Bucky, we have been filling our time with anything we can like watching movies, going to the cafe, and training. We haven't started the teleportation thing yet because he wanted to work on my tattoo instead which I didn't mind one bit. He just didn't want to overwhelm me with a bunch of things he wanted to try and do but the only thing with my tattoo is that we haven't made any progress. Bucky says that making it one leaf high is progress but I don't see anything great about it. We have tried starting from the top too and work our way down but it just never works and the burning comes back.
It has sent me down into a deep depression hole that makes me not want to leave my room, eat, or drink anything but Bucky forces me to do the last two which I don't mind. I just feel horrible for not being able to have sex with him but he said he doesn't care about that and only wants me to be comfortable being touched by him. That's another thing, I want him to so bad. There is nothing more in the world I want that to feel his hand on my side without it hurting or bringing back memories so he can hug me without being careful. He painfully apologizes every time I scream the word 'red' and start bawling when I didn't make it but it's a work in progress though and he's been encouraging me every minute of the day when I think about trying but now I am just sick of it and want nothing to do with it anymore.
Right now, it's after dinner and I sit at my desk with my feet on the edge of the office chair and my arms wrapped around my legs, resting my head on my knees and watching a random Minecraft video on YouTube that Peter sent me for when we do play the video game whether it's on a mission and we are stowaways or we feel like staying up when I don't have paperwork and he finished his homework. Peter sends me different videos of different house, farm, and barn tutorials because he knows how much I love to just build our house and garden while he goes off fighting the mobs and mines for resources completely surviving for the both of us while I sit, thinking about which painting I want hung on the wall.
"Y/n!" I suddenly hear a cheery voice outside of my bedroom door
"No." I sigh and pull the hood of my sweatshirt over my head before holding my legs tighter to my chest but it doesn't stop my door from opening and in pops Bucky all merry and ecstatic as he walks in with a smile on his face and his left hand behind his back, obviously hiding something from me
"How's my beautiful, gorgeous babydoll doing?" Bucky asks and wraps his free arm around my shoulders to kiss my hood covered head
"I said I'm done trying, Bucky." I whisper and place my head on my knees to watch my video
"My Y/n." He removes his arm from my shoulders and closes my laptop to stop my video
"No." I whine and close my eyes as I pull the edge of my hood down, now completely encasing myself in darkness of despair and dread while he sets something on the desk and walks behind my chair, spinning me around so I now face my bed with my head still buried in my arms that are wrapped around my legs
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Those Ocean Eyes and That Charming Smile
Fanfiction"You're staring." Bucky speaks with some insecurity in his voice "You can't blame me, Barnes." I shake my head with a smirk. "You're just a sight I don't want to look away from." I flirt and he chuckles what sounds like a sigh of relief as he walks...
