The Mercenary 2

Part 46

Noah POV-

We'd managed to get Y/N away from Steve and she was furious, her skin hot as her eyes turned black.
Noah- come on, let's go
Y/N- let go of me
Noah- not gonna happen, training room now.

A gentle push and she's made her way in. I set up the punching bag as she wraps her hands and starts punching.
I knew she needed to release some anger and this was better than her going full nuclear on the compound

Y/N POV-

I threw my headphones on and started punching, Steve needed to mind his own business and trust me once in a while. I knew what I was doing  but yet he felt like he should make the decision, No! The decision was mine to make, I was the one shooting.

If I let the kid see his dad get shot then he'd never forget it, I didn't. It was have scarred him for life and he wouldn't be the same as he was before.
We couldn't take the kid with us either. I did the right thing and I know it, I just don't think the team will agree with me.
I know the target wasn't going to die but a child's last memory of his dad being shot is not one to have. I know what Shield do with their targets, who knew if they'd see each other again?

By the time I've worked my anger out, it's 4am and I wasn't even tired. Since I came back, I haven't been able to sleep.
I could feel the fatigue running through my body but every time I closed my eyes, the pain came back.
The electric shocks running through my body as the head piece tightened, memories being lost and new thoughts being given.

Y/N- J.A.I is anyone awake?
J.A.I- It seems everyone is asleep, the Vision is awake but in his room.
Y/N- I'm going out for a run, inform anyone if they question my location.

I liked to run, it kept me healthy which was great but it was also a way to find and experience new sights. I liked this one area a couple miles from the compound, a wooded area with a river nearby, it's one of the things I remembered from the first time here.
That's where I was headed, I needed the serenity right now.

When I eventually head back to the compound, it was 7am. I hadn't realised how long I had been sat there and it wasn't fair to stay out so long.
I walk back in and find a few people stood in the kitchen area, I grab a bottle of water without looking at any of them.
Steve- silent treatment hey?
I wasn't going to entertain his pettiness, a quick glance at him and he knew, I wasn't happy.
Steve- get over it already
I could feel the anger building up again but I couldn't do this, I walked away.

Taking the elevator to my floor and strolling past a few of the others as I headed into my room, locking the door behind me and throwing myself down onto the bed.
I didn't want to see anyone and I certainly didn't want to talk to anyone either.

My room had become my safe space, it's where I liked to be when I wanted to be alone. Nobody dared bother me and I tended to always be in there since I came back.
I sat looking at the rings, the thoughts of the previous conversation flooding back.

Y/N- I was going to propose...
Wanda- what?
Y/N- I bought these rings with Peter. We went out and got them straight away, I just knew after our argument I didn't want anyone else
Nat- why did you never ask?
Y/N- I don't know, I can't remember
Nat- it's okay, don't stress about it
Y/N- I'm worried that I'm making you both stay for me and I don't want that, I want you both to be happy
Nat- I'm happy with you

The tension in the room could've been cut with a knife as Wanda was silent
Y/N- it's okay if you've moved on
Wanda- I..I just don't know
Y/N- don't worry about it, I'll just keep them in my safe and not think about them

I hadn't spoken properly to Wanda since, the odd chat here and there but nothing serious. I'd seen her with Vision and she looked happy, I wasn't going to intervene in that.
J.A.I- Mr Rogers is looking for you
Y/N- tell him I'm busy
J.A.I- he asked doing what?
Y/N- loathing in self pity then I'm going to lay on my bed staring at the ceiling until I fade into the madness
J.A.I- I have forwarded that and cut off any more communication

I get comfortable when there's a knock at the door
Y/N- who is it?
Peter- it's me
I open the door and he wraps his arms around me, I lean into his shoulder as the hug continues. I didn't have this bond with anyone else, the kid was special and I felt like I was always safe around him.
Peter- I'm sorry I couldn't get here earlier, I've been rammed
Y/N- it's okay, I just wanted you to see me and know I was fine
Peter- from the message I heard, you're lying
Y/N- yes. Maybe a little

We both laugh as we lay down on my bed, talking for hours as he had nowhere to be.
I could sense the others walking past and smiling at our jokes and laughter.
Nat- come on kids, time for breakfast
Y/N- I'm not hungry but thanks
Nat- I don't care, you're eating.
Peter- think that's my cue to leave

I just stare at Nat as Peter slides past her, running down the corridor.
Nat- did you sleep?
Y/N- nope, it's not my friend
Nat- when did you last eat?
Y/N- lunch yesterday I guess?
Nat- you need to start taking care of yourself. I don't care if you stay in bed when we are all up and train whenever you like, none of us want to make you do things that you don't like but eventually, we are gonna have to step in

I scoff at her remarks, I knew what I was doing.
Y/N- you see I remember everything about the last year but I haven't submitted the file yet, I don't want people to take pity on me
Nat- tell me
Y/N- continuous torture, whether it was electric shocks or being woken up by blaring music and flashing lights. One meal a day if I was lucky because you need to survive on the minimum and if I was really lucky, I'd be allowed a shower. You haven't seen me because the scars are there, new ones that even I don't want to see. Bruises still there from the last beating and broken bones healing.
I train on my own so no one sees, I throw clothes on when I hear someone coming.
Nat- we didn't know...
Y/N- no one knows what I went through, I'm sorry if me being like this has now become an inconvenience to all of you.
I grab a jacket before storming out the room, heading to the car park and jumping into my car. I couldn't be here right now but I didn't know where I should be.