BEAUTY & ESSEX ◆ JJK ✓

62 | SAME MAN, DIFFERENT TENSION

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you hated to admit it. but, you've given up on your search for the love of your life. perhaps everything
was just a dream as dohyun had said after all.

you stepped down from the stool after tipping your bartender who served you drinks with extra pocket money, you unknowingly had with you. you're now approaching that reserved vip section, reminiscing
those times you'd spend with jungkook, and all the
boys recklessly partying as young adults.

but now all of those smiles, joyful laughs, and fun
times in general, were all gone.

it was simply a thick rich material curtain that had blocked your sight of the vip section. it was not the average room others with money wouldve paid for.

it is the reserved room that you, jungkook, and all
of the others would hang out in. you contemplated whether or not to burst in only to see if jungkook's inside. but you've ran out of hope.

there was no point in searching, after spending one whole year and a half dedicated to searching for the
love of your life, jeon jungkook.

you just wanted to go home and get the rest you've longed for. the rest, you deserved. you turned onto
your heel, and without caution that somebody was behind you, you collided against anothers' chest at
that exact moment. however, before you were able
to descend one more, the figure swiftly wraps their
arms around your waist holding you up.

your eyes met with his, and that is when you have realized that the man who caught you, was him. it
was the man you've longed to see.

"jungkook." you whispered.

so, instead of pushing yourself away from jungkook,
you wrapped your arms around him and pulled him
into your embrace. without being aware, fresh tears slowly starts to stream, down your reddened cheeks.

"i've missed you, where have you been?" you asked, however something felt strange. the aura around as
well as the tension between the both of you, did not
feel the same or how it used to.

he pushed himself away from you gently, grasping
onto your forearms, and bringing them away from
his waist. you stared at his taller figure seeing that jungkook wore no expression. he was emotionless,
and the curiosity within you only expanded.

"i'm sorry, but i think you're mistaken." he said but
your mind wasn't able to process.

"excuse me?" you say as his emotionless expression slowly changed, into more of a glare. jungkook only looked back at you, with the same cold glare he had when you first encountered him, years ago.

"you've got the wrong person."

with those very few words, it caused bewilderment,
moreover madness to fill inside of you — from that statement from him you feel as if you were in some
long lasting dream. there's no way he has forgotten
who you are especially after all that the both of you
had endured through the years.

frozen in your stance, you did not bother, to follow
after the man who presumes you as a stranger. you simply watched the man walk away with no shame
or care that his words covertly impacted you, a ton.

maybe dohyun was right? perhaps, everything you thought you'd went through, was all hallucination.

it felt strange that you hadn't become an emotional wreck from his words. however, you've been hurt a numerous amount of times as well as cried, to even allow your emotions, to get the best of you. instead,
you decided that hiding the way you felt is best.

crying won't get you anywhere.

instead of sadness, you felt outraged. this feeling of everybody taking advantage of your injury and then playing games with your mind, pissed you off. all of
this, seemed like complete bullshit — you shouldn't
have allowed them, to get away with this deception.