BEAUTY & ESSEX ◆ JJK ✓

40 | WALK OUT OF MY LIFE

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"i already broke things off with that wench. she's all yours, just like you wanted."

i scoffed. at that moment, confusion invaded me by his false and thoughtless assumption about me and y/n. we didn't sleep together. almost, but i stopped ourselves before we could take things further.

i stopped her because i didn't want to ruin what her and jungkook had together.

"what are you talking about?" i replied, denying the false assumption he had against me. my brows arch as i stare at jungkook who wore a mean glare on his face. jungkook sighs glancing away from me for one second — afterwards adverting his gaze back to me.

"just like her, huh.." he scoffs. "the two of you must love playing dumb. is that how you got your dick in her?" he questioned as i rolled my eyes.

"listen we didn't—" i was cut off mid sentence as he raised his voice. "don't you dare give me that shit. i know what happened, and know what you two did." he cursed, as i raised a brow confused by his words.

"jeon, listen to me," i pleaded.

"you know what?" he asked. "fuck you." he remarks as i remained silent, shocked by his words.

"there's no denying the fact that you slept with that slut." he shamed, making my eyes slightly widen by his choice of words — i've never seen jungkook this upset over a woman. but the worst part is, was that he is not even giving me a chance to explain myself.

"if you'll let me explain, then—" for the second time tonight, jungkook recklessly interrupted.

"whats the point?" he questioned. "there's no point in you being here, because i already cut her off. y/n and i are done." he confirms leaving me completely speechless.

i clenched my fists, as i felt my blood boiling inside of me. i never knew this side of jungkook. he wasn't ever the type to thoughtlessly give up like a coward.

did i regret kissing y/n that night? yes. the thing is,
i put an abrupt stop between us for a reason. theres
a huge wall that was in our way preventing y/n and from continuing with the sexual activity, that night.

and that wall, was jungkook.

he is like a brother to me and once i realize what i'd be getting myself into for messing around with y/n,
i stopped myself — i just couldn't do that, to family.

i watched as jungkook turned on his heel, his back facing me as he approached his car, that was a fair distance away, from the both of us. he grasps onto the drivers door handle and that's when i irrupted.

"so, are you just going to leave the girl you love?" i dared to asked.

he released the handle, and allowed his hand to fall to his side. however, jungkook's back was still faced against me. he remained silent as i watched the boy inhale seeing his shoulders go up, afterwards down.

his silence was almost captivating. it makes me feel like i'm going insane, because i was desperate for a answer. but the stubborn boy wouldn't listen to me.

"are you just going to stall time, and watch the love of your life leave?" i asked once more, knowing that my words were making him more mad each second that i proceeded to speak. i was provoking him, and he was growing impatient with me.

any second now he would irrupt like a volcano. he's known for bottling up all his emotions and running away from his problems. and that's what i despised.

i knew the boy well enough to know that he's afraid. afraid of admitting how he truly feels.

"shut up, park."

his voice was low, and sharp. i was able to feel all of the anger inside of him, through the way he'd reply to me. his low tone intimidated me, however seeing jungkook like this, wasn't knew. knowing jungkook ever since he was a kid he was stubborn. he has not changed at all, and that's what really impressed me.

"you're a coward, jungkook." i provoked. "you are a senseless, fucking coward." i continued.

"admit it already, just admit it!" i raise my voice, as he remained standing still. "i don't know why you'd always miss the opportunities given to you. are you just going to fall in love, with somebody, then leave
them a second later?" i questioned.

silence. jungkook didn't say a word.

"i know you love her... i know, that you know too." i sighed. "but what i don't understand is why you are letting the woman you love, walk out of your life.." i added. "sometimes you need to be selfish, and what you need to do, is get her back before you lose her."

i was thoughtless, and didn't think a second chance before speaking again.

"don't lose y/n like how you lost your wife."

soon as those shamefully wrong words had left my mouth, i immediately, mentally slap myself across the face. regret overcame me, as i gulped, instantly regretting my choice of words.

and before i knew it, jungkook lost himself.