Welcome to Serenity

Always Feel This Way

Annie's POV:
I take a few shaky breaths before regaining my composure and pushing my pain and heartbreak down, away, locked in a cuboard far far way.

"Hey Annie, how did it go with Tyler?" Isaac asks while I wash and dry my hands, before walking over to him.

"Uh..." I trail off not sure how to explain what happened only a few seconds ago.

"Annie I need you to take these to table seven, the Miller family, Isaac can you take the apple pie out of the oven in three minutes." Erik interups, smiling kindly as he hands me the plates.

"No problem." I say happily, faking a cheery plastic smile.

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I lay on my bed after work, staring at the ceiling. A sudden knock interups my thoughts.

"Jackson?" I ask as I see him outside my door.

"Hey Annie. Ty is a jerk." He says and holds up a pint of strawberry cheesecake icecream.

I smile and let him in.

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After demolishing the pint of icecream and watching 500 Days Of Summer, I walk Jackson to his car.

"Thank you so much Jackson. You are the greatest guy ever." I smile as we stand by his car as rain starts to ricochet off my umbrella.

"Also the icecream. Great idea." I laugh as he looks hesitantly at me.

"Are you okay, Jackson? You have been acting kinda weird all night." I observe as he takes a deep breath, in and out.

"If you don't want to talk about it, we don't have to." I say smiling kindly.

"Thanks but..." He trails off as I watch him try to come up with what to say.

Raindrops fall faster and heavier as I start to walk back to the porch, after a few moments of silence.

"Annie?" I hear him ask.

I turn around and watch Jackson as he continues walking straight to me.

Suddenly, his lips crash onto mine as he kisses me hungrily, his arms wrapping around my back pulling me towards him. I kiss him back trying to match his passion, but not finding the strong raw emotion.

My hands tangle into his hair desperately, his arms around my waist. My brain nitpicks, and reminds me of how Ty would kiss me differently.

"Tell me you don't feel anything!" He declares as we pull apart and I stare sadly at his face, raindrops streaming down his face.

"Jackson I..." I start to say as he shakes his head.

"Annie, yes or no. Did you not feel that when we kissed?" He asks again as I sigh, his eyes pleading.

"Jackson. I love you. But-" I start to say until he interupts.

"No. No 'buts'." He says drawing his lips to mine, this time desperately.

I pull away as his head bows down, disappointed with the awnser.

"I love you Jackson, but not in the way you want." I sigh as he chuckles slightly, his hand running through his hair.

"It would be so much easier with me. I could treat you so much better than he could." He insists as I deny his words, a small, sad, lonely, part of myself wishing I could believe him.

"Jackson I could never love you that way, and you would grow to hate me for not being able to. I don't want to hurt you." I say a tear rolling down my cheek.

"Be with me. I would always be there for you. If you don't want to hurt me  cause you are hurting me right now." Jackson argues as he holds my hands in his.

"Please?" He begs even though he already knows my awnser.

"Jackson, I am so so so sorry. But some day you will find some pretty girl who will feel the exact same and she will love and appreciate you more than I ever could." I state.

"And you will love each other and she will be perfect for you." I smile at him hoping he will believe my words.

"No, I do not think that will ever happen. I think I might always feel this way." Jackson fights, his eyes glossy with tears.

"No, you won't." I laugh as he steps back, letting go of my hands.

"I am sorry, I know you will probably and should hate me now. You have every right to. But I cannot trap you in a one-sided relationship." I whisper softly as he looks back up at me.

"I cannot believe you are choosing him. You deserve so much better." Jackson scoffs as he opens his car door.

"I can't help who I love. I truely am sorry, Jackson." He climbs into his car and slams the door shut behind him.

"Night Annie." He yells bitterly as I watch him drive off down the street and out of view.

I pull out my phone and call someone who is one of my few stable friendships I have currently.

"Hey Kyle. It has been a long day." I sigh, tears stinging my eyes as I head back inside.

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