addiction - hyunchan

forty-eight

not all relationships work out with a happy ending.

that was something seungmin had been telling himself for the past year, to convince himself it wasn't his nor jeongins fault their relationship came to an end. over the summer after that school year had come to an end, they didn't see each other, not even once. now that it was yet again 3 quarters into the school year, they had only seen each other around campus every once in a while since they no longer shared a dorm.

today, seungmin was fresh out of class, heading back to his dorm building. as he stepped inside pressing the elevator button to open, he was surprised to run into his ex, who was exiting the elevator. "what are you doing in this building?" seungmin scoffed, still hurt from how jeongin left things unsolved and never even attempted to fix them. "let me guess, hooking up with someone new?"

jeongin rolled his eyes. "that's none of your fucking business."

"oh, so i'm right. suprised you haven't gotten an std yet. sleeping a round with half of the students here."

"can you just shut the fuck up! i was actually looking for you, but clearly you don't want to do anything but insult me. so i'll take my leave." jeongin attempted to push past seungmin but was stopped when he was pulled back into the elevator and shut in.

"you want to talk? then talk. i've been waiting for a whole fucking year." seungmin snapped. of course he was angry, this was the same boy who guilted him into sex everyday, or went and cheated when he said no, then ghosted him when he wanted to work things out. so yeah, to say he was upset would not even be close to how he truly felt.

"can we just wait until we get to your dorm?"

"fine."

once the two boys entered seungmins room and sat down on his bed, sitting next to each other facing the wall, jeongin began. "look, i know you hate me, but i just want us to be on good terms. i'm not asking to get you back, i just want what was unsettled to be settled."

seungmin looked over to the younger, still listening.

"i'm sorry for cheating on you, and i'm sorry if i ever forced you into doing things you didn't want to. i know i was a shitty boyfriend, you didn't deserve to be treated like that"

"jeongin, you're addiction is what drives you, and i know you couldn't help it but that doesn't excuse you from calling me names behind my back, fucking my friends and doing little petty things just to get back at me for not wanting to fuck. you're an asshole for what you did."

"okay i get it, i'm an asshole. but seungmin, you stopped even caring for me. you started ignoring me completely, you never told me you loved me, in fact all you ever said to me was how i was an inconvenience to have around. you are the one that pushed me to leave. i loved you more than words could even explain, but you treated me like shit. maybe instead of ignoring me and calling me pathetic back then, you could've asked to talk it out. maybe then i wouldn't have left your sorry ass."

"fuck you, i did try and talk to you but it always ended in fight because you make everything about yourself."

"definitely, it's always about me. how about how you always make me seem like the bad guy, yeah i've done some fucked up things to you, but i'll never forget about how you treated me when you knew i was struggling."

"struggling??? your just a fuck boy cheater!"

"god dammit seungmin you'll never understand, will you!??, i wish i never fucking dated you!" and there it was, jeongins last outburst of rage before pushed himself up off the bed and stormed out of seungmins dorm, fleeing the campus completely to get his mind off yet another attempt to make things right.

seungmin fell onto his bed, tears trickling out of his eyes. he knew that relationship would never be fixed and he had now completely lost the boy he once loved, as goes for jeongin.

neither male was in the right nor wrong, both having their own reasons for how they felt. it was both parties fault for the split between the two. who knew such a perfect couple could come crashing down so messily. it's unfortunate that not all relationships work out with a happy ending.