addiction - hyunchan

twenty-five

lots of heavy breathing came from the two continuously spent their high fucking eachother in the back of his car.

chan trusted his hips upward meeting hyunjin who straddled him in the back seat. both refusing to put a halt to their kisses as they found each others lips too addicting. the orgasms themselves were a euphoric high adding on to the stimulation from the previously smoked marijuana. "fuck! we should do this every night" the younger grunted, clenching around the length inside him.

"you want that yeah? then fucking beg for it." chan groaned, loving the way hyunjin was so fucking experienced with his hips.

"i will, so don't pussy out when i'm in the mood all the time. now that i know what your body is like, i might just make it my new addiction" hyunjin bit chans lip pulling it back before releasing it, face twisting in pleasure as his prostate was being stimulated. "fuck chan, go harder!"

chan complied and pushed in deeper receiving a satisfied moan slip from hyunjins lips. "i'm cumming inside you" he warned, "make it messy" hyunjin replied with the same energy, pushing himself down onto chans dick while pumping his own to finish simultaneously. "yes, fuck, yes!"

"right there hm?" the elder teased throwing his head back and filled the boy with his warm cum, still maintaining speed to finish hyunjin off just right. hyunjin let out a silent moan, it getting caught in his throat as he abruptly came on the elders stomach along with himself. the immense amount of pleasure that a single human had provided him was enough to get him hooked on wanting more. so when chan pulled out he couldn't help but reattach his lips to chans, praising the elder at how good he was all while feeling cum run down his thighs leaking out from inside him.

although the high had added to the sensitivity in stimulation during intercourse, the two males had mentally agreed upon this being a great mix. their body's seemed to work well together leaving every empty second for your brain to crave for more.

the two continued to stay in the back seat for nearly 30 minutes feeling around each others bare naked body's, continuously kissing and marking each other in visible spots on their necks with dark purple and deep reds of distressed blood vessels. in the end hyunjin was the one to pull away, staring at the hot man beneath him with eyes still full of lust. "we should get back to the dorm..." he murmured, biting his lip at the way chan's sweaty state was appealing.

chan nodded, hand still gripped tight on the addicts waist. "good idea, a shower would do us good now that we smell of weed and sex." chan let out a chuckle soon joined by hyunjins melodic laugh. as they agreed, they crawled back into the front seat after slipping on their sweatpants but keeping their shirts off since it was still a bit warm in chans car.

...

chan was finishing up his shower as hyunjin had already done so and was now sitting up on his bed contemplating weather what he had just done was a mistake. he'd come to an agreement with himself that only time would tell weather this was a not-so-good idea or not. his thoughts came to a stop as chan walked out of the steamy bathroom in only his boxers, just as hyunjin was, and walked over to his own bed to slip under the sheets. to say chan was tired would be much of an understatement. along with the drowsy high state he was in from smoking only two hours ago, he had also used much energy when having sex with hyunjin.

he had sex with hyunjin...

and that's where the the contemplation of his own rolled in. too afraid to speak a word to the addict at this point as they had went from physically abusing each other a week prior to now fucking one another in the back of chans honda civic. what would everyone elses minds resort to when hearing this exotic news? to know that the bang chan had fucked the same boy he claimed drugged him the first time. and the same boy who was constantly accused of raping chan that night had willingly slept with him yet again, it sounded to unrealistic. he felt so guilty and dirty for ever letting those false rumors spread as a teen, allowing some other student he most likely chose to sleep with at a party, be accused of such horrid things leading to an inevitable pit of dispare and hopelessness ending with resorting to drug abuse.

"hyun-"

"can i smoke again?" hyunjin cut the australian off, not wanting to have a conversation about anything at the moment. despite him still being high out of his mind, he was still desperate for yet another distraction.

"not now, just get some sleep."after that was saida chilled silence fell over the room as the lights went out. forcing themselves into a deep sleep, they both didn't want to ruin the high with negative thoughts of the many possible outcomes from tonight.

...

chan's alarm went off early that morning 9:00 am sharp. the elder groaned slipping out of his covers and heading to the restroom as he would to get ready for class every morning. as he looked at his shirtless self in the mirror he was reminded of the night before, much clearer with his now sober mind. eyes trailing down his neck to his v line, red and purple marks remained much darker today. in all honesty, chan wasn't sure how he felt about it. yeah, he'd definitely do it again, but was it okay?

in a way he felt as if he had taken advantage of hyunjin who had been in such a painful mental state this past week, not to mention his ongoing crush for felix was still present, or at least chan thought so. one thought led to another, felix in the equation only made him wonder if it was strictly a sexual thing, no underlying emotions beneath.

it hurt him to think about. weather he'd convinced himself he still hated hyunjin, it was far from the truth. so much of his time and energy had been spent on the addict that he'd developed a feeling where he felt it was only necessary to continue caring for him.

"chan~" hyunjin drowsily spoke, stumbling into the washroom. "can i have felix over while you go to class today? i don't want seungmin watching me anymore."

"um yeah that's fine, but what's wrong with seungmin?" chan questioned.

"we don't get along. i just need to talk to felix about...stuff" the addict said almost in a whisper, leaning against the door frame as he anxiously nipped at his bottom lip. he looked upset to the elder, face lacking the smile he'd seen the night before. in all reality though, hyunjin was simply confused on how to think at the moment. the situation that occurred the night before were following him around as if they had more to say. so the only way to figure out what the feeling was, was to speak to felix and see if something...anything is still there.

"yeah? what stuff?" chan said placing a hand on hyunjins cheek, a bold move that was surely unexpected. he took a step closer, his chest close to pressing against hyunjins and continued to rub his thum gently over hyunjins smooth skin on his cheek.

"it's about us"

"is this an us? or just a thing we're going to do?" was it simply for the sex or was there some unspoken feelings under everything that had been brought to the surface these past 5 years? chan wanted—needed to know if he was just going to be used and tossed away when hyunjin was up and healthy again. he had to know if it was wrong to want to keep what they had started, going.

hyunjin leaned into chan's touch and sighed while his eyes sketched over the tons of hickeys he'd left on the on person he now only wanted to hate most. but unfortunately to the fortunate that was not the case any longer since he too felt as if he finally cared for someone new. so was it really how he felt, or was chan just a distraction to keep him mind from the constant crave for the drug that ran through his blood stream for years? "that's what i need help to figure out."

(af/n: win is in juvie rn, this is the only book with prewritten chapter. she'll be back in 2 weeks, dw abt her though she's completely healthy and happy. plus these 2 weeks might help he sober up lol)