addiction - hyunchan

forty

"chan...i-i'm sorry i didn't mean to spill t-them i was ju-"

"it's fine jisung. just please go finished getting ready so we can leave. i don't want to be late."

"okay, i'm sorry hyung."

chan sighed at the overly apologetic boy as he picked up the many pills he had spilled on the bathroom floor of chans apartment. today was finally they day hyunjin would be released from the rehabilitation center. that's right, a year ago today the boy started his journey of becoming clean from drug abuse. after this long awaited time of chan being alone, somewhat, in either his dorm...or now his newly bought apartments he got after graduating college, he would finally be able to bring home the boy he loved so dearly.

of course they rehab center never stopped him from seeing hyunjin, chan made sure to visit every month to check up on the boy. he'd bring him new clothes or bathroom supplies, all things that had to be checked by staff before handing to the younger. and throughout those monthly visits, both boys continued to fall harder for one another, simply anticipating the day they could finally be alone again.

and if you're wondering why jisung is living with chan, it's a long story but to put it short, seungmin and jeongin continued to look for jisung and minho after the boy ran out of their dorm without warning. they even went as far as to filing a police report after 24 hours. their plan was to lock minho up for kidnapping but since there was evidence of them being in a long term relationship, the police discarded the case. that was until the case was reopened due to statements claiming lee minho had been abusing jisung, even when the boy was a minor. eventually they had found the two hiding in minhos hometown where the elder in fact was not escaping to get sober like he promised the young boy. instead he was continuing to drink and use jisung against his will. they took minho into custody as well as jisung for questioning, although for the first week the boy denied any questions that involved minho hurting him or touching him without consent, reason being he would've done anything to keep that man out of jail. unfortunately minho was sentenced to 4 years for domestic abuse and rape charges and it was not easy on jisung. he relied on minho for nearly everything and that's why he had stuck around all those years. it wasn't the constant threats or beatings that told him he couldn't leave but the way minho was the only home jisung had ever known that mad him stay, and it was forcefully being taken from him.

"chan?"

"what is it now jisung?"

"i have to pee."

chan sighed and quickly picked up the rest of the pills while the younger boy stood in the doorframe with his legs crossed, impatiently bouncing to keep his mind off the fact he had to use the restroom. "i left your meds on the counter, do you want me to stay in here with you?"

"no, i'm okay. just keep the door open please." said jisung as chan exited the bathroom. chan smiled at the boys answer, it was nice seeing that he was getting better. for the first few months, the boy couldn't even shower himself, let alone be by alone anywhere.

after jisung zipped up his pants and took the few pills chan left out for him, he rushed to the front door with chan where they slipped on their shoes, exited the home and headed for the car. "chan?" jisung peeped as the elder backed out of the parking lot to his apartment building.

"yes jisung?"

"since you get to visit hyunjin all the time, will you ever let me see minho?"

chan sighed, he knew this question would be brought up sooner or later. he had only hoped it wasn't this soon because he hadn't fully decided on what the right answer was. "maybe, why do you ask?"

jisung looked down, fiddling with the sleeve of his sweater. "i-i'm just missing him lately, that's all."

"you're playing with your shirt again, tell me the whole truth, jisung." chan knew all the boys little habits when he told lies. unfortunately he could see why it was so easy for minho to read and manipulate the boy.

"umm- he is sober now... so-so he's better right? i just want to see the real minho...the one i stuck around for, you know?"

while keeping his eyes on the road, chan sighed yet again. "like i said before, it's a maybe for now. i think it's better someone else goes before you do, just to see how things are with-"

"chan hes MY boyfriend!" jisung bursted out in slight rage, suddenly realizing what he had just done and began to lower his tone. "im sorry it's just—i think i should see him if anyone."

"okay. i trust you to see him, jisung. i'll figure out the visiting hours sometime this week and i'll take you. good?"

"good. thank you, hyung."

...

"looks like you're finally getting released today huh?" one of the staff members explained to hyunjin as the boy had finished packing up all his belongings. 

"fuck yeah, i can't wait to get out of this shithole with you weird ass workers." he chuckled walking passed the worker and rolling his suitcase to the front, completely ignoring the same worker as they tried to continue their conversation with him.

"a year clean, we're very proud of y-"

"please for the love of fuck, stop talking to me. thanks for helping me out and all, but you and me are not friends, you imbecile piece of shit. i don't give a flying fuck if your proud of me or not, you're ugly and so is your stupid wife that runs this place. again, thanks for the free food all year but please, rot in fucking hell, you son of a bi-

"hwang for release, your...partner has arrived." a woman's voice said hesitantly over the intercom.

and with a sigh and a roll of the eye, hyunjin flipped off the cameras in the hall and yelled "just say boyfriend, you homophobic dipshit!" then, full of excitement, he ran out to the front lobby where chan and jisung awaited. not wasting a second to jump into the eldests arms and crash their lips together.

(a/n: new era shii)