Stole My Heart ❤️ {A Jackson Avery love story}

Chapter 158:

It's been a couple weeks since I've been back in Seattle and since I've been back, I've been getting in the routine of getting the twins to daycare, getting a cup of coffee and sit in the auditorium to listen to Amy's lectures. And now, today is the day that Amy operates on Herman. I walk into the scrub room and I see Amy looking into the OR.

Delilah: hi.

Amy looks over at me and pulls me into a hug.

Amy: tell me something. Anything, anything that'll stop me from freaking out.
Delilah: you can do this Ames. You've been preparing yourself for this moment, everything will be okay. You're Amelia Shepherd, the most badass neurosurgeon I know. You can do this. You're a freakin' superhero Amelia.

I kiss Amy on the forehead then I go off to the OR gallery. I find a seat in the front and I watch very closely as my aunt starts.

Amy: start the clock please.

Once the clock has started, Amy makes the cut. People start showing up and watch the surgery. I'm sitting in between Mer and Maggie as I watch my aunt closely.

Maggie: so... this is a regular thing. You all come up here and you watch surgeries. Why?
Meredith: not just surgeries– the big surgeries, the whale surgeries...
Delilah: the rare ones...
M&D: the crazy ones.
Meredith: I mean...
M&D: you're on the edge of your seat.
Delilah: the patient could die...
M&D: this is life or death.
Meredith: the adrenaline...
M&D: the rush.

Maggie looks at us in concern.

Maggie: do you guys always do that?
M&D: do what?
Maggie: talk at the same time.
Delilah: oh, yeah. We spend way too much time together that we've just—
Meredith: gotten into the habit of it. We can also finish each other's—
Delilah: sentences. And we can practically read each other's mind. Mer and I always joke that we're sisters in another universe.

Mer and I share a laugh.

Maggie: anyways... so you watch, like, the worst day of a person's life like a movie.
Meredith: no, not like a movie.
Delilah: that's insulting.
Meredith: exactly. This is not entertainment. "Movie".
Delilah: oooh, this is where it gets good.

Mer hands me an orange and I hand her a granola bar then we eat as we watch.

Amy: let's go ahead and inject the dye. Lights please.

I watch very closely as they start injecting the dye.

Guy: what does the dye do?
Delilah: the dye makes the whole tumor glow so that we can see where the tumor ends and where the brain begins.

I watch very closely. My aunt looks up and we make eye contact. I nod my head and her and mouth 'I believe in you' to her.

-later on-

Stephanie: Dr. Shepherd is now cutting the tumor away from the gyrus rectus.
Guy: gyrus rectus?
Meredith: the area responsible for our sense of smell.

I watch closely as the surgery goes on. Callie keeps talking so we all shush her then we keep watching.

Stephanie: Dr. Shepherd is now clearing the tumor away from the midbrain structures... the fornix, the thalamus.

I go to the edge of my seat as I watch.

Delilah: wait. Oh god... she's already behind. Come on Ames, you can do this.
Stephanie: uh, using extreme care not to violate the interior commissure. Dr. Shepherd calls this the dream box.
Guy: Dr. Grey, I'm sorry, but "dream box"?
Delilah: where we create dreams and memories and discern shapes and colours. Read a book for the love of God, you imbecile.