What If love is real

Chapter 38 : Nightmare

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PS : Bring some tissue along :P ( I did )

I listened to some songs while writing : Cause I get really inspired if I listen to music :))

HOZIER - take me to church

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Sofia Karlberg - Crazy in love ( Cover )

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" No you're not going to this party " Nate snap at me

"Why not ? Why would I even take your permission? " I defend myself

"Because I'm your boyfriend " he states

"Yes . You've said it ... My boyfriend not my dad " I snap back

"Don't turn it on me now ... " Why is he so angry and upset about me going to this party . it's just a party that Melanie is hosting for the first time

" I'm not . I just can't understand why you're so negative about this party .. "

"I'm not . Just as I told you .. Parties are not for you .. There is no good behind them " he snorts out

" says the party boy , who spends time out at parties more than with me "

" I'm a boy " how ridiculous is his judgment

" Since when going to parties was about gender ... And just stop fighting because I'm already done " I said after putting on my face some makeup .

" Why you're so stubborn " he turns to me , his eyes red blood with anger

" I'm not , I just want to be with my friend .. And please go " I fight the words to come out , I started to get so afraid when Nate loose his temper

" She is not your friend .. And why should I go . So you can go out after me and enjoy this party maybe hook up with the first boy who comes to you ... " He really knows how to make me feel disgusted and angry

" yes as I did with you .. I kissed the first guy that came to me exactly like you . And Melanie is my friend , how much do you know about me to say that .. " I said fighting the tears from my eyes ..

"You know what .. get out of my room , and don't ever come back again . I'm done with you.. I'm done with your insults . I'm done with you hurting me .. I'm not that little girl anymore " I shouted at him before grabbing my bag to go out and leave him by himself

" And I'm the one who changed you , you ungrateful little bitch .. and you will get back to my words , this girl is a bitch Just like you .. You'll see .. " he said as he grabs my arm forcing me to turn around

"Don't you dare .. " I managed to get my arm out of his hand .. I don't know from where I get this strength because he was so strong

" Or what .. ? " He stepped towards me .. Small space between him and I before I flinch back

" You afraid aren't you " he look outside and back at my obvious shaking body

" Just don't, stop please ... "I screamed when he firmly grab my arms with his hand

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" Sandy wake up ... It's me .. Please wake up " A familiar voice .. And strong hands starts shaking my body .. They were the same strong hands like Nate's but those ones were more soft on my skin
" Sandra please .. You're okay , I'm right here with you ... Open your eyes " It's Zayn its his voice , I'm fine .. Zayn can protect me .. He won't he would never hurt me .

I open my teary eyes , the sweat is covering my whole body .. I was upset and happy at the same time when I saw Zayn .. I felt protected, safe . He is looking at me confused , despair for an answer that I'm not sure I can tell

His hand starts wiping the tears from my cheeks , while his other hand is tight on mine .. He didn't say a word after I woke up , his left all the sad talk to his eyes to do ..

They were sad and angry at the same , their hazel color is much darker now .. It's more like a light brown .. His mouth is trembling like if he is hesitating to say something to comfort me but he don't. And I don't blame him either, I was like that when I first known about those nightmares , I was not able to comfort my self or tell something to my heart to feel less painful.

neither do my family, they thought they were comforting me but they were not , I make them believe that I'm better with them cause I was afraid of the solitude...I was not getting any better from the Pain that he caused ,

It was still there and it still here .. Somewhere in my heart .. The damage has been done and I can't take it off .. I just can't , It will haunt me for the rest of my life . The Pain and the fear will get out of me every time that someone touches me , Every time that a guy try to approach me .. And I don't want to hurt Zayn anymore , I don't want to give him false hopes , I should let him go .. He should let me go .. Even though I want him to stay here with me .. cause the life is just easy with him .

" Drink some water " Zayn finally get the words out and hands me a Cold glass of water

" Thank you " I said before drinking the chilly water

" Can you get back to sleep ? " He Ask

" Yes , I think so " I managed to smile at his face , just to make him feel more comfortable to tell him that I'm fine , And I'm so grateful that he hasn't asked about my nightmares .. I don't even know if I said his Name again , If I was screaming out all of my memories , I can't leave Zayn , I don't want and I won't .

Zayn's POV

Sandy's Screams get me out of my sleep , I am very heavy sleeper ... Which means she screamed loud enough to jump me out of bed , I couldn't do a damn thing at first , She was shaking in her place calling hims name " Nate " more than once , she said " please don't " I imagined the scene in my head .. And I couldn't handle it , I start shaking her to wake up .. To look at me .. I wanted her to know that I'm here for here , I'm not going anywhere and Hell no I will never ever hurt her

Suddenly her eyes shot open and her brows knitted together ... Yes ,She finally opened her teary red eyes "I sigh" , I was looking at her and she was too , we are both silent , I was afraid to say something wrong , I was afraid to ask if she's okay ... Because she's clearly not .. She looks lost in her bad thoughts ... Her eyes are fixed on me , but it's like another person , It's like she is looking at someone else and not me

" Can you get back to sleep ? " I don't even know if she will , If its possible to go back after a nightmare but I didn't know what to ask , And of course I will not ask her about the nightmare or that Nate , At least not now but another day

" Yes I think so " She smiles ... I'm not surprised , I know that this smile its just a line on her face , to make it easy on me , She felt that I'm struggling to talk , to understand her , She did it for me .. How can she still think of my feelings of me after what is happening to her ?

She layed down on the bed and I covered her ... Should I just leave her alone ? What Should I do next ? Maybe I should just go and leave her alone , she already closed her eyes , I will stay close , on the couch maybe ... I will just be her garden angel for the night , I can't leave her face those nightmares alone again ... Not without my help

I smiled at her sleeping angel face and start walking away when I heard her saying " Zayn don't " don't what I returned close enough to her , So I can hear what she is about to say

She took my hand , opened her eyes and said " Stay with me please , Don't leave me " She said in between the falling tears and my heart aches , but I'm strong of her

" I will never leave you babe" I said as I made it in bed beside her , She took my hand on her And closed her eyes ....

MY HEART IS HURTING FOR SANDY .... IT'S JUST A FANFIC ... WHAT DO U GUYS THINK ;'( <3 ?