What If love is real

chap 45 : One of a Kind

It was so late when I came into the house , I stayed for more than an hour laying down on the grass looking at the stars .. I also talked with Sam and my parents , they are really sad that I didn't come on my spring break but I had to stay here its the best way to stay away from everyone .. But as it seems unfortunately all the troubles came to me .

I couldn't sleep , its 5 Am and I'm still going back and forth from the bed to the window seat watching outside the dark blue sky coming little by little to a clear grey color and the raising sun still hiding behind some clouds .

My eyes are wide open and morning is almost here and I haven't slept .. I should just go out for a run , its been a long time and its also good for me to clear up my messy thoughts .. i've been all night thinking of what happened with Nate and how much I missed my best friend Mel and how weird was Zayn last night and specially the surprising guest Lea .

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The air is chilly outside and I'm not wearing much , but its okay cause I will warm up while running.. I came out of the house without making a sound .. To careful to not wake up Jenny . I almost forgot that good morning feeling with the fresh air and the nice breeze , the smell of the flowers and the sound of the birds singing behind the trees .

My feet automatically stopped when I reached his house , he usually go out at this time and exercise.. But maybe he's tired or still asleep or he's just gathering his energy for tonight's concert

I really want to go and look through the glass wall , to see if everything is alright, I want to knock and he come out wearing only his pants and showing all his chest tattoos , now that He left me , he was the one to take the different direction .. I felt bad and hurt , this is how he felt whenever I pushed him away from me .. But he came back every time, he never left me ...

It's 8:30AM he must be awake right ?!

I knocked more than once but no one answered the door .. Maybe he's still asleep , I'll come back later .. Its not that far and I like walking in the park .. I will tell him everything he wants to hear about my past

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" Morning Jenny " when I get back she was taking her breakfast outside in the garden

" Morning babe , you were running really?! Its not like that you have a lot of Fat to burn .. " I know I'm not Fat .. But I like running and its not necessary to run only if you need to loose weight.

" I called Home yesterday.. Sam's graduation is soon " I really envy him .. I still have a lot ahead and I don't even know what I want to do with my life

" Yes we should be there .. " Of course " when Zayn is passing "

" Why would he ?!"

" He's taking you to the concert with him " Jenny said so sure of herself, she doesn't even know that there is any feeling between us ?!

" No I'm going with you " she looks at me and nod without any more questions

" Did you know that Harry is with Lea ! " jenny also hates Lea and her family .. She said that they're so full of themselves, Sam and I agree but not mom .. She just love her best friend Mrs. cruise

" Lea Who?"

" Lea Cruise" I said and Jenny spit out the coffee that she was drinking from her surprise Lea and Harry its more harder to imagine it than to say it

"What?! Why is she here ? And how Harry ?!"

" Yes they are together , I don't know how she met him or why she's here but since we've besties I"ll meet her today and ask if you want " can't even imagine my self shit

" Stop kidding Sandra "

" I'm not really they are together , yesterday night I had dinner with Zayn and Harry .. She was with him "

" Pff, she's a nightmare really .. " Yeah don't need to tell me about it " whatever it is between her and Harry is nada babe don't worry .. Harry get bored so easily from girls like her" hope so

" They seemed so into each others don't know"

" He will regret it then , I just heard the song that he wrote and I'm not sure if they are so good for the album .. "

" Oh my god you're so cruel don't even think about it"

" And why you're not going with Zayn ?! " She rolled her eyes waiting to lecture me again about love and relationships and and ...

" And why should I go with him ? "

" Well he's.. I know Sandy he likes you and you like him .. So " was I so obvious

" Ok yes I'm not going to deny it Jenny but that does not mean that we're dating and in love so drop it "

" Okey I won't insist but Zayn is a good guy and you're a nice girl you deserve a fresh start and someone in your life don't ever let the past affect your future .. "

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I went to my room after eating with Jenny and chatting.. Under the shower now Jenny's last words to me kept ringing in my mind ; I deserve someone in my life and I should forget about what happened and think about my future... If Zayn is my happiness I should take him ..

Now that I haven't talked to him , I realized that I cant live without Zayn .. I love him .. I like every single little thing above Zayn .. When he smirks, smiles, laughs .. When he cook and take care of em , when he sing , when he kisses me ...

Before I have finished thinking about what I like and I don't about Zayn , I found my self in my car driving towards Zayn's house , I should just tell him every thing he wants to hear

I parked the car and quickly runs to the front door , knocked and wait for the door to open , knocked again but no answer .. he maybe already went out .

I'll meet him backstage but I wanted to tell him everything before the concert

I'll get ready and go there , maybe he's rehearsing again , he must be busy that's what he said yesterday ..

Zayn' POV

" Yeah okey Men , I'm at the front door " Harry called me , I have to pick up his new girlfriend .. he have something to do

" Sorry did I kept you waiting " I don't know if I should address her as Harry's girlfriend or Sandy's friend .. thinking of that , Sandy and I left yesterday on a really bad terms .. I was really pissed of her , of what this girl said

" Nah , I just arrived " The girl seems really nice , I don't know why Sand'y doesn't like her , and she's also wearing sexy , she's sexy , she's blond .. I always had a thing for them .. but I felt for a brunette , not everything we want we get sometimes we get attracted but the most special things and this is exactly why I felt for her .. She's very special , a one of a Kind Girl ... xx