What If love is real

Chapter 56 : New me ..

" For god's sake Lea No .. " I yelled when I saw where she is walking towards
" Babe, no excuses for today .. you'll do as you're told " she waves a hand to shut me out ; and as I'm thinking of it , its been ages since I went to a hair Salon , my hair is a mess " Bonjour mes demoiselles  " ok thats french
" He's French and he kinda of like girls so much " she laughed and winked at me
the guy with pink hair joyfully welcomed us to the inside , Lea smiled at him as if she knew him for ages then she pointed at me with her finger " her today "

" Mon amour , come with me ... " he took my hand and started fast walking if not running like a child to the other side of the place , he make me sit on a chair, he then went to talk to some workers "So .. what Do we have here ? " he exclaimed playing with my hair with his finger "Don't cut it please " my hair is so precious , I've been growing it for years .. don't want it to end miserably

" No worries love , just let me work .. you won't intervene , speak, or say something that will piss me off during my work .. speaking of that " He stated with his strong french accent and  stopped to cover the mirror then continued " okey .. I guess everything is alright , shall we start ? " he ask leaning to me , I was still amazed how he talk, he completely shut me off " okey I guess I'll start " he said answering for me with a girlish accent . I put my earphones on , adele was on the run .. I relaxed , closed my eyes and completely surrendered to his hands

I heard the noises of the scissors moving even through Adele's marvelous high notes are ringing in my ears . moments after I felt something cold and refreshing on my  skin ..  now someone is grabbing my hand , start massaging and doing my nails , and thank god that I'm listening to music with high volume, I hate the sound of this fucking nail file

" OH MY GOOD " Lea literally screamed with her high pitched voice , and unconsciously I stood and start looking for a mirror . I was thinking that he massacred my hair looking at lea's expression . I swear I was so damn scared to look at my self but once I did ..
" what the hell ??? " I shout at my unrecognizable reflection in the glass , Is that me ?
" You look .. " Lea with unfinished words start examining my hair through her fingers " can't even find the words " she said in between our surprised laugh
" Stunning, Marvelous, Une Beauté , Merveilleuse ma chérie .... " Leo shouted with joy , waving a hand in the air and the other one on his waist  , I know that he's flattering me at least
" Yes !!! " Lea confirmed his words and for the first time I agree on something about me

" I really don't know what to say !! It looks like another one , me but differently .. Thank you so much Leo " I turned to find him looking amazed , tears fulling his eyes ,
" ugh , don't cry you'll ruin your mascara " Lea exclaimed , and we burst in a laugh , And seriously his makeup was on point
" Waterproof babe !! " he rolled his eyes at Lea annoyed and took me in a hug "I just get emotional seeing my piece of art " he said giving me a hundred kisses on my cheeks

Waiting for Lea to pay , I stood in front of mirror examining my new look , I'm totally lost in it .. Can I fell in love with myself ? My hair is almost the same length as it was just more sparkling and alive with big curls and gold color , thats what I loved the most , the color is just sparkling like the stars and I'm officially now a blondie
" Yes , you're a blond .. Welcome to team Lea" she startled me from behind , I guess I've said that louder than I thought
" so what's next ... ? " I asked Lea before she starts driving
" look who wants to go out now !!! " we both smiled , I just want to enjoy my new makeover and try this new me , looking how determined I am from inside to break free and love again , I want to quickly see it

After a long hour in traffic we arrived at our favorite dress shop
" So continue .. ! " I said adjusting my strapless dress in the fitting room
" so , okey .. Well this day I was out shopping, Harry was rehearsing for the concert , when I came back to our hotel room " We both get out of the room at the same time , she was trying a dress too
" Same hotel room hmmmm " I teased " and fuck you're stunning Lea in that dress " her curved body was well fit in a pink tight dress
" Yes , what ? You want us to stay in separate room , he's my boyfriend " she laughed
" God Sandra , you're gonna be fucked for sure in the club tonight " what the hell ? Sometimes I don't understand what she said but looking at her expression , my dress must be perfect !! I went for the sexiest dress in the store , black , short , strapless ... Hot and sexy.

" what do you mean ? Fucked .. " I punch her head so she can give me a reaction or answer , she was on mute mode for more than 10 seconds and thats not normal with her
" I mean boys will die to fuck you tonight " she said clearly not meaning to hit on my sensitive memory .
" I'm not that easy .. I wasn't last time either he was just way to strong " I tried to play it cool and start fighting that bad memory that is not supposed to hunt me anymore neither take the fun out of my life
" I'm sorry didn't meant to .. You know me sometimes I talk to fast and I don't know for the most of the time what I'm saying !! " she's so weird trying to apologize its not her thing . And its better if she just say sorry and shut up .
" sometimes .. Not sure about that , you mean always , you always talk way to fast " We both hilariously laughed

I put the bags in the back seat, its been a really long time since I bought so many clothes, I totally forgot how a girl feels so happy when she go shopping .. One of the best feelings in the world . I usually never liked buying clothes but now I just feel it like a part of how I want to live , just enjoy the universe and be free .
" Hello babe" Lea quickly answered her phone after the first rang , I guess its Harry
" No way .. Its amazing , yes .. I miss you, and love you so much , can't wait to see you love and cuddle " Lea excitedly responded to what  Harry was saying , she seems happy and excited , and I just thought of how I spoke to Zayn on the phone its was lifeless and boring , I never get to say a proper I love you , I never expressed my self to him . no wonder he forgot about me .

" Ok , so we'll go to my house to get ready " Lea get me out of my thoughts , my self critics
" Yes .. To your house " I said quietly
" Are you alright ? "
" Yes girl .. Can't wait to Fuck tonight " I quoted her sentence , and it sounded so weird  compared to when she said it , maybe the timing or how how clearly I was paced before
" Sandy ? "
" Yes " the way she called my name , She will ask something , something that she's not sure I will take it well
" Zayn and You ? " that was a question !! Zayn how long haven't I heard that name from someone's else . I've been avoiding this for months and for hours with Lea . What about us ?! We never talked in the past weeks , he don't say I love you anymore ! He stopped calling to check on my nightmares , he stopped calling me so we can stare at the Sky at the same time and see which place have the most stars . We stopped doing what we like , we stopped being us . He was tired of following and never get a feedback , I guess this time is mine . I need to follow and earn Zayn Again .