What If love is real

Chapter 48: I'm Done

After Zayn insisted that I should follow him out , I did .. I didn't want at first but he was so different, angry .. I was actually afraid that he would make a scene and embarrass me in front of Sophia because I was trying to know more about her and Lea who will find a subject about me to spread

I walked to a corner at the end of the corridor , like a storage .. No one will hear us in here , I stood my back on the wall ; Zayn was going back and forth in front of me .. His hand clinched, his other one on his head .. He looks angry and scary .. He looks exactly like the guy I fear the most , the guy who made me leave everything and ran to a place where no one was familiar to me

He's now facing me , he was so close that I could see his Adam's apple moving faster and faster.. While my throat couldn't swallow my excessive saliva from panic .. I can't have this panic attack again , not in front of Zayn not alone ... Not before I told him everything , if only he could calm down

" What are you doing ? " Zayn shout at me , his hand on my arm .. His eyes red , burning with anger but why ? Why is he like that !!!
" What Zayn ? Please calm down .. " I tried to touch his arm with my hand but he snatched it away
" Calm down .. You should calm down , you're the one who should step out .. " What is he trying to do cause clearly he's not saying anything!!!

" I'm calm Zayn .. What is wrong with you ? You're not yourself .. You're angry and ... " He cut me out with a hit on the wall , his hand hits the wall .. So Loud that it could be heard from far away , he's hurt but of course he's hiding it

" Oh yeah.. I'm the one whose different " he snorted
" Yes " my voice was barely heard , and it was shaking and I could feel the horror inside of me .. Trying to get all of this pain , anger mixed emotions in my head and I know Zayn won't ever hurts me , Its just your head Sandra .. I'll keep repeating that so I won't have that attack again .
" You're the different one .. You are once with me and another time flirting with some random guys .. Did you flirt with that guy who talked to you at the club too !? " He can't be saying that . no no not him

" You're bluffing ... I'm not talking to you right now , we will talk after the concert , after that you get your head straight " I gathered all my strength to snatch my arm away from his hand , I start walking to wherever the hell is the exit ...
" I'm not done talking " it only took him a second and a strong hand to catch me and turn me to the wrong direction
" I'm done " I snap at him , showing him this side , my anger .. Hoping he would leave me to go .. I don't want him to talk to me right now because he's going to hurt me .. And I don't want him to do it

" I said I'm not " he took my arm again stronger than the first time feel like my arm is ripping out of my shoulder " what is wrong with you ? " I said pointing with my eye to his hand but he didn't show any affection

" Please don't tell me that this past of you that you're hiding , you're hurt and afraid of whatever the shit is .. Is an act cause be sure you make a good actress " the glare in his eyes was different than the Zayn I know , the words coming from his mouth were also so mean and not the old Zayn would say to me
"Zayn stop now that you can , you'll regret it .. Please " tears start falling from my eyes ..

" Then tell the truth if its not that .. " His grip was more firm on my arm " Zayn it hurts " I said pointing to his hand on my arm but he care less, he is blind by his anger and jealousy
"Zayn please it hurts " his hand was really so tight on my wrist , I feel it snatching from the rest of my arm ...

" You know what F**k you Zayn , go to hell "
I tried to make him angry so he can ket my hand go
" Go to hell Kelly , you're a slut flirting with every guy her eyes see .. Don't want to see you again " he said and pushed me out of his way - he pushed way to strongly than he realized maybe , I felt on the hard ground and my head hit the wall behind me . He stood there , he realized that he did hurts me finally not only with his rude words but with his hands too .

Its here .. It arrived ! Me being afraid , scared , terrified of a guy who's now hurting me .. Only this guy promised not to .. Well Nate also promised but he did - it's really not shocking coming from a guy - they are finally all alike , what a stupid girl like me could know about guys .. I was always an easy prey to animals .

" You okey ? " Everyone was outside - I haven't realized that we were in front of their room .. When Zayn followed me ..
" Sandra ? " Lea was the one talking
" I'm fine , I just slipped " I took her hand to stand .. Yes I'm getting help from Lea , I could care less now about our issues
We all went back to the waiting room , it was still early for the concert and I was actually dizzy , I think I badly hit the back of my head , Lea brought me some ice cubes in a towel , and a pain killer ..

" Even the girl that you hate is helping you and you're playing the innocent in here ... Bullshit " Zayn scoffed , everyone was looking at him .. He is way over reacting , I don't even know why he started this fight
" What's wrong with you Zayn , shill men " Harry said - I mean everyone was saying it with their looks , Zayn was angry for nothing and over reacting and rude
" Nothing is wrong with me , I'm fine .. I'm good actually, I've never been this good , I thank good really for not falling in love with a lying slut " he snorted

" Okay I'm done " I jumped off my place and took my things to get the hell out of here
" What you're hurt .. You shouldn't be " he scoffs
" Zayn you don't what you're saying " I can't stop the tears falling in my cheeks
" Wait! Have you fallen in Love with me . Oh please don't go back to drinking like you did with your ex boyfriend " what the hell !!!
" Zayn shut up " Lea stand and scream at Zayn

" Wait .. Okey I will tell you everything " I'm suddenly all brave and standing still on my feet , not scared or afraid or ashamed from all my past that I'm going to tell right now in front of everyone