What If love is real

Chapter 44: Forget the usual little things

I tried to stay cool .. But everything was so annoying, the fact that we're sitting on the same table is just unbelievable..

She is the same as usual .. Stupid , blondie with blue eyes and nice hair and nice figure, I know she is beautiful, she always was since I can't remember.. It's so ridiculous that I'm trying to remember my child best friend who ditched me because of social life or whatever ; and its more ridiculous now that I'm thinking about her while she's there throwing her body on Harry and flirting with Zayn .. She's doing what she's good at .

" You're so quiet " Harry startled me .. but please thank you for that , I couldn't think more of our past , of Lea Cruise Past

" I'm just tired Harry , its been a long day " Well that was the right thing to say , my mind is still working after all

" She has always been like that " I knew this was coming , she saying a thing about me which means we know each other , because we didn't say that earlier , I stayed calm and quiet and so is she .. But of course she will say something

" What do you mean ? Do you .. " Harry was the first one to notice , while Zayn is just sitting in front of me , his eyes haven't left mine and I just like It ... How did I not said yes to my faith , oh yes I think he is

" Yes we know each other .. We " Lea started but I don't even know what lies would she dare tell So I just cut her off and tell the story

" We're not friends , like BFFs , her parents are my parent's friends and we just have seen each other a couple of time , so you can say that we don't know each other really well ... Am I right Lea ? " I clean my throat am I saying and she get it I guess

" Yes that's what I was about to say , but still we've seen each other for a lifetime , was it 20 years or less " She adds , and she's not getting enough of me tonight

" Yes unfortunately 20 years .. And yet I couldn't know you well " well she started it , I am now very good at throwing arrows at people ,

" Well you know, I had some standards when it comes to friends , and you didn't fit " She answers

" Oh and thank god for that , I mean you remember the cameleon that we used to have , well you're just like it , you changed your skin so many times that I barely remember the old you and to be honest I loved my skin so much to change to another " I said and Zayn cleaned his throat , hit my leg and mimic with his mouth " What is it ? "

" Oh really , well from what I know if someone love his skin to much , why would he change it at this old age .. running away from where you belong and leaving your old life , coming to London where no one knows your past isn't that a modern way to change your skin or let me put it in another way hide under the wings of a new person , is it like that Sandra ? Don't you agree with me guys ? " I know where she's exactly meaning , and I know that since the time that she saw me she just wanted to say all of that so badly ...

" You don't really know what happened , so don't throw stones on an injured bird " I can't stay here , I can't let her say everything , she doesn't have the right to .. ! she won't bare and say it .. ? would she ?

" Why ? What is this story ? Share it with us ... Or should I just go with my version, well I know its the right one , let me at least tell your new friends ? don't you wanna know guys .. ? its worth hearing , its an exciting , dramatic story " She is really a girl without a heart , I thought that her heart is still pure like the child that I used to know only her character has changed , but I guess I was wrong

" Oh wait , I guess you're boyfriend , will not really like this story , Are you Zayn ? do you like those romantic stories but with a dramatic ending .. " She address Zayn , what is she doing ?

" Oh Zayn and Sandy are not together like a couple " Harry answers before Zayn

" Thought so , after that she won't " She silently said and Zayn haven't said a word but he have this dreadful red look that I haven't seen before and its actually scary

" Shut up Lea , Its not your story to tell ... And Stop getting into people's business , aren't you tired of that .. " my glass if full and I can't take her anymore

" No , unfortunately .. I find it Fun , its like a hobby ... Whatever , Let's just wrap it for another day then .. I guess we'll be seeing each other a lot Zayn "

" Yes I guess so " Zayn said without thinking , so what after all that she said he just wants to see her again "

" Sandy and I will go .. right ? " he finally said the words that I wanted to hear the most

I quickly took my bag and follow behind Zayn , this night was by far the most terrible one since my first day in London .. was is it really necessary for her to come her ? when am I going to be happy in this life and not get any problems , troubles or evil people when ?

Zayn is really quiet , and inside he haven't said a single word .. and he just enjoyed Lea's words maybe because he wanted to know my past and now he got a teaser on it .

" Should I take you to Jenny's house .. ? " Zayn asked on the drive that was getting so awkward

" hm .. guess so , I don't have another home , not that I remember " I said with a cheerful smile , I'm trying to joke to cheer up the mood in here but I think it was a bad one

" Yeah , well I was right then " Zayn said

" Right about ? " What is he saying

" I was sure that you're going to say yes to jenny's house and not mine of course " what is this attitude ? why is he angry at me

" I just thought that you want to rest tonight and we will meet tomorrow for your concert and if you wanted me to come with you , you should've just asked like you always do .. "

" Yes , well I will not do my usual things from now on ,you have to start learning to do the first move ..; start getting used to it " he sharply said

" What is wrong with you ? "

" Oh me , nothing , the question should be for you instead " Zayn said and I don't have a clue for what is doing .. If it was about that story of my past again , I already told him that I will tell him everything when its the right time .

" What is wrong with me ? nothing Zayn , As I remember I've done nothing wrong to you .. "

" Forget then " he said and why all the problems are on me ? I am really tired really !!

He parked in front of Jenny's house and he's not looking at me , his eyes are straight front and he doesn't unplug his seatbelt like usual and get down with me and open the door for me .. and kiss me , "I will not do my usual things from now on, start getting used to it " this what he said and doing .. WTF is wrong with my pathetic life

" I can't take you with me tomorrow night to the concert , come with Jenny .. " he said and I am so shocked by the way he said it .. he is another person , he isn't Zayn that I know , there is no love in his words , the love also belongs to the usual things ...

There is this part of our lives full of problems and bad feelings .. Its just the life prophecy .. It will get away , Patience is a need —- xx

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