12.05.2022
I'm so dumb.
I'm so fucking dumb.
I shouldn't have sent that, I know that you would get angry at me, I know that you would raise your voice. I'm so stupid. I'll never ever say something again. fuck you goddamn, I don't want you to be with me right now, I want to block you, it hurts, it hurts so goddamn much.. I'm stupid I'm backing of, have fun getting back my trust, because it's gone. from now on I'm fine.
sending you what I wrote was the worst thing I could ever have done. never again, never ever again, I wish I just wouldn't have said that, then I wouldn't feel this way right now. I want to kick you out, out of my head, but I overhear it over and over and I can't stop, not even some of my comfortsongs are working. I hate you for saying that, fuck you fuck you fuck you.
I wish I never wrote that, I'm completely overwhelmed, are you like him?? are you really like Fabi? are you?? seems so it fucking hurts I think I'm losing you, I don't want to but I am, my heart is losing all of you, more and more, I'm losing you with every fucking word..
YOU ARE READING
Help me
RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
