15.05.2022
fire
do you know that fire playing with your hand, if you're touching somebody you love? do you know that little flame softly going over your skin if they accidentally touch you? do you know the flames you feel inside when you kiss your love even if it's their hand? this soft, loving and kind flame of love? yea? that's good, but do you also know the feeling of this little flame turning into a bad.. black flame that doesn't feel good anymore? the fire that's burning you with every touch so you can stand it..? the fire that hits you so you just want to leave? no..? perfect.
I do.. that what I felt and maybe feel if I'm with you. after you yelled at me, every single touch, even the soft and little ones, burnt me, made me feel bad and just want to leave, because it didn't feel good.. I want the soft little flame to come back, I'm scared of it never coming back because I always loved your touch but know I can't let you touch me, because my head's blocking everything and just telling me what you said over and over and over and over and I'm so fucking sorry.. I wish I could change it right know, because I know the time laughing with you, cuddling you and just enjoying the time with you, listening to your voice and starting to smile when you look at me like you do.. but I'm so scared right now.. I want Into your arms rn, but I'm scared of my head blocking you again.. I wish you never reacted like that.. I'm sorry..
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RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
