12.05.2022
are you able to love me?
I sometimes don't think that it's going to work out with us. I don't think that you are able to love me, sometimes everything Is going so well, your arms a just like heaven and peace, but you are just a little.. I don't know how to say it. you don't want to hurt me, that's what you said, but you're still doing and saying this little things that are hurting so fucking much. you know, I tell you that I'm uncomfortable with my body and hate it and you sometimes make jokes over it..
or I tell you how I'm feeling but all you will say about it that I should be happy and that I have everything I need in my life.. you make me feel bad for thinking this way,
when I say It won't Work out with us, it's not about you. it's about me.. it's about my head and everything, it's about my motherfucking mind..
you tell me you love me over and over but.. there are so many things that you don't see, don't understand and say that hurt so much.. little things..
or I told you I can't stand somebody raising their voice at me but you do.. you.. you said things I can't forget and hear over and over in my head, in my mind. why did you say it?
you say that you're sorry but even if your are it won't change anything.. I'm so sorry for telling you, I wish I never said a word..
but are you able to love me..? I don't think so because you will shatter at my walls, because you will break listening or reading my words and you won't understand.. you won't understand little things so I don't think you're able to love me, I don't think it's going to work out for longer..
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RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
