23.06.2022
You know, sometimes I think I should feel something, but I don't, do you know what I mean?
There are persons I should feel love for, but there's nothing, absolutely nothing.
A cut should probably make me feel pain or anything like that, but they won't let me feel.
I saw my ex today, knowing I will see her again and I think it should maybe hurt and I know it did, but I didn't even feel something.
I can't feel and this hurts even more, there's nothing but emptiness, but ther should be feelings.
You know, things that should make you happy, doesn't work anymore, won't make you feel anything.
Things you enjoyed got annoying and not wanted in just a short time, do you know?
I feel like giving up, giving up on everything, giving up on my life, on my friends, giving up on school, on plans, giving up my future and just.. exist.
I'm not even a hundred percent sure if I have real life friends. I'm not quite sure if they are my friends. Sometimes I feel like they aren't, cause they're so.. cold, like they don't want me around, like I'm annoying and sometimes.. they just talk to me as if we were best friends, as if they were worried about me, or are they just bored and need someone to talk to..?
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RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
