12.05.2022
I knew it.
I knew that you would raise your voice, I want to leave, I want to get cold and don't show you any of my feelings anymore. but I know I can't, you will make me weak again and again, and again and again you will hurt me, again and again you will make me regret trusting you and again and again I will swear I won't tell you anything again. but I will. I will tell you, I will trust you and you will hurt me and I know it. but I can't stop, because I love you, because you're really important to me.
I don't know why I showed you, I knew what would happen, but I guess I still believed in you, I still believed that I could trust you and still believed that you could understand it. but you didn't. and now I know. but why, tell me why did you need to yell at me like this? why did you say these things to me? why did you make me feel this way? I can't explain, but I am so fucking sorry, even though you hurt me, because I know I hurt you. I made you feel bad and I am sorry, I wanted to tell you because I believed you could understand but you didn't. and it was the text that was.. not as "bad" as the first one, how would you have reacted if you read the other one? would you be even angrier? would you tell me to stop like you did? I know you can't understand and I'm sorry that I bothered you. I'm so sorry.
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RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
