15.05.2022
I wish you never fell in love with me
I wish you never fell in love with me, I wish I could change it because it would be better for you, you could be happier and wouldn't need to worry all the time.. I'm so sorry for making you love me.. I didn't do it on purpose I promise. you may say it's the best thing happened to you but trust me, it's the worst, like look at me, I'm fucking ugly.. another thing.. I'm a trans guy.. you deserve a fucking girlfriend.. it's hard.. I'm so sorry, I'm destroyed inside I wish you could understand why I am feeling like this, why I am thinking about me this way, but you can't. I wish I could explain or show of my feelings better so you could know, but I can't. I wish you could be happy all the time, laughing and smiling but instead of making you lucky all I do is worrying you and I'm sorry. you're such a pretty boy.. inside and out, crazy but loving and caring, eventhough I can't understand you sometimes.you're the best, you know?
if you fell in love with someone else.. you would be happier now
if you fell in love with someone else.. you wouldn't be worrying the whole time
if you fell in love with someone else.. the person maybe wouldn't be that insecure
if you fell in love with someone else, if would be so much easier..
but you didn't, you fell in love with me, and everytime I see that I hurt you, make you feel bad or anything, I wish you never fell in love with be, because I'm not good enough, you deserve someone who's way better then me. I hope you can forgive me one day..
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RandomTW Das hier ist wahrscheinlich nichts für Menschen, denen es psychisch nicht gut geht, die mit Depression, Ängsten oder irgendwas in dieser Richtung zu tun haben! Großteils sind es Gedanken und Situation, Texte die aus dem Moment heraus entstehen...
