Captures of Perfect Timing (The Art of Life #1: Life Version)

09.22.18 - inextricable us

When I became friends with the girls, I made an agreement to myself not to let anyone interfere nor ruin my relationship with them. Especially not because of some guy.

Thus, I chose Ailene over Kiel. I chose to save what I had with her over Kiel.

What I failed to realize was that... Kiel was also my friend. And he was actually there first. Siya ang pinaka-una kong kaibigan.

He was the one who made me unlock my door. And as I welcomed him, I forgot to lock it again... allowing other people to enter, too.

I failed to appreciate him. I failed to appreciate our friendship. I didn't appreciate him enough to consider what we had before deciding to end our friendship.

And I regretted all of that.

Nagsisisi na ako roon. Narealize ko na mali ang naging decision ko.

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko siya pinahalagahan.

He brought change to my life but it was so easy for me to just forget about him... Tinapon ko na lang basta-basta 'yung pinagsamahan namin.

Our friendship shouldn't had been sacrificed. I wasn't actually supposed to hear Ailene and Shan's conversation... I shouldn't have meddled.

Hindi ko dapat pinapangunahan ang nararamdaman ng kahit sino. Hindi ko dapat pinapangunahan si Kiel. Hindi ko dapat pinangunahan ang kung ano mang gustong mangyari ni Ailene.

She didn't tell me to end my friendship with Kiel. No one told me to do so. Kahit ako... ayoko naman talagang gawin iyon. It was so unfair of me to not even consider what Kiel would feel. I couldn't even give him an explanation and that hurt him more.

Dapat pala, labas na ang pagkakaibigan namin ni Kiel sa kung ano mang nararamdamn ni Ailene para sa kaniya. Labas na dapat ako.

"Okay ka na ba?" I checked on Kiel.

Naglakad kami patungo sa park. I invited him to go inside our house but he refused since he didn't want my family to notice that he cried.

Tumango siya. "Okay na."

"Naniwala ka ba sa sinabi ko?"

Tumango siya.

"Hindi 'yun totoo."

Tumango ulit siya.

"I'm serious. Don't believe that. Sinabi ko lang 'yun para umalis ka... I'm sorry."

"Pag-iisipan ko pa..."

"Hindi nga 'yun totoo."

"Eh paano kung sinasabi mo lang 'yan para hindi na 'ko umiyak?"

"I admitted the truth... that it wasn't true... because I felt guilty. I felt even more guilty when I saw you cry."

"Hindi totoo na sagabal ako sa oras mo?"

"That never happened."

"..."

"I enjoy your company. Trust me."

"..."

"You're my friend, Kiel. You were never a nuisance to me. I like being with you."

Napangiti siya. "Okay, I believe you."

"Good."

"Okay. Pwede na ulit mag-hug?"

I glared at him.

He chuckled. "Huwag ka na ulit lalayo sa 'kin, ha?"

"Oo na."

"Promise?"