❁ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀᴄᴜᴘ - ʀ.ᴊ.ʟ❁

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 34

𝕿he rain pattered against the windows of the castle, creating one of the most soothing sounds i've ever heard, each individual drop gliding down the glass. There's hundreds, millions, gazillions— probably infinity of drops just simply covering the Scottish Highlands in an early February shower. Here I was, sitting in the corner of my favourite greenhouse, listening and watching the rain hit the transparent sort of house I was in. A yellow blanket covering the floor, my converse discarded as I hugged my knees, wearing sweatpants and a sweatshirt.

I felt.....lonely.

There's always a difference between being alone and feeling lonely. I never really feel lonely, I always have someone around me to keep me company, or I enjoy time on my own, doing my own little thing. Not today though. I felt lonely. Scarlette was catching up on some work with Regulus in their common room, I had no idea where the Marauders were, probably pulling one of their boyish pranks, I didn't know where the Gryffindor girls were and whatever they were doing I didn't want to intrude or feel out of place. I didn't want to go to Sprout or Mcgonagall because they're not here to keep me company, they're here to teach.

I was lonely.

Teddy would be some good company right now, I decided, but he's at home with Newt, probably making the most of my jewellery box and the knives and forks in the kitchen. He likes especially the fork with the pink handle I used when I was younger, calling it my special fork. He likes that one a lot. But he's not here, Newt's not here, no one is here, i'm lonely. I know I shouldn't rely on people to be around me all of the time, because that's selfish and not fair on them, which is why I stayed here in the greenhouses, with the rain and just me.

Remus pursed his lips as the four of them entered the dorm after pulling a prank on Mcgonagall which they would likely get caught on later. For now though, he wanted Willow. He was yearning to be near her, he feels like he hasn't seen her in days, every time he's going to find her, Lily's whisking him off to the library or wants to walk around the grounds and he never ends up seeing her. They haven't spent a moment alone in weeks and he missed it. They're not a couple, but fuck does he miss her, he needs to he with her, she's like his oxygen. Willow is his oxygen.

He reaches for the Marauder's map on James' bed whilst the other three still laugh about what they had just done, his eyes eagerly searching for her name, finally spotting her in the greenhouses. Alone. That's strange, she's never alone, Scarlette's always with her, or atleast someone, she's very rarely alone. He ran a hand through his mousy locks, placing the map back on James' bed, before making his way out of the dorm without a word, his heart aching, longing to see her so it can flutter again, of pound awkwardly in his ears.

Sirius glanced to the door that just shut behind the boy, his eyes trailing down to the map open on a specific column, the greenhouses, a ribbon with the name 'Willow Bellamy' displayed there. He feels sympathy for the pair, they're obviously pining madly for each other and they never get to see each other except for lessons because there's always a wedge or something going on so they can't stay together longer than five minutes.