idk bro gimme a break

Asahi's yk yeah a draft that will never be in the cut

Istg im not a sucker for bad endings but my MIND KEEPS LEADING ME TO IT.

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Relationships, Asahi isn't interested about it. But, if he will love someone, he wants it to be real.

But what is real and what is not? In this strange world where every men likes men, a BL world, would Hamada Asahi ever determine which is which?

The answer is, no.

Asahi has been dating Jaehyuk for 5 months now. They haven't talked about their relationship yet. None of them brings it up, scared? No, nervous? Maybe.

Asahi never thought he'll get to the point where he would date someone. It seems like an unachievable dream due to the weird circumstance that the world is fictional. He assumed he'll grow old without experiencing going out with someone, female or male, he thought his beliefs would halt him from moving any further.

But, life is full of surprises, Jaehyuk swooped in and somehow conquered Asahi. Well, not that either of them planned to do it, it just happened.

The night when Jaehyuk confessed, they talked about it the whole night. Neither of them slept. While Jaehyuk was concerned about his current stand in Asahi's life, Asahi was worried about their future.

Love is a strong word, Asahi appreciates Jaehyuk's feelings but will he be consistent about it? Because Asahi already witnessed different types of relationship in this world, it's easy to fall in love but it's hard to stay in love.

Perhaps Asahi was scared.

Once he gives his heart to Jaehyuk, will he take care of it? Or break it into pieces?

So they decided they'll test it out.

That's the night when they started to officially date.

Now, nothing much has changed. Same old Asahi with the happy virus Yoon Jaehyuk. They are currently walking in the park, just strolling around to get some fresh air while holding hands.

Though Asahi never made it transparent, Jaehyuk snickered then directed both of them to the nearest bench. He could tell something was wrong, Asahi has been thinking very loud.

Jaehyuk forced Asahi to sit on it then he sat beside him "If you have something to say, just tell me" Jaehyuk flashed a reassuring smile.

Asahi looked down and started playing with their fingers "How much do you love me, Jaehyuk-ah?"

Jaehyuk exhaled then brought their hands up to the air "Sahi-ya" Asahi looked up and met Jaehyuk's eyes "I love you more than you'll ever know" Asahi somehow can't reply to that.

He felt like a douche. He wants to say it back, but he keeps holding back due to.. what?

Asahi lowered their hands then stared at the ground. To check Jaehyuk's expression, Asahi can't bring himself to look at it. Perhaps it's the guilt running in his veins that prevented him from saying the three words.

Jaehyuk loves him, but Asahi just likes him. There's a huge difference between the two. While Love is a strong word, Like is a safe word. Jaehyuk is ready to label their relationship as something while Asahi's just being indecisive.

Asahi knows what he signed up for, but he seems to be unprepared with what comes next.

He shouldn't have asked Jaehyuk that question.

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Asahi has been laying out cryptic questions and words these past few weeks, Jaehyuk grew worried about Asahi's state. Although he wants to squeeze the information out of Asahi, Jaehyuk didn't want to be pushy and force Asahi into admitting something he didn't wanna share.