I Can’t Sleep
I cannot shut my eyes at night,
I cannot sleep when all others sleep.
When I shut my eyes all I think is-
Why does the sun have to come up?
When I do not want to live another day
I, selfish as I am do not want to see the sun rise another day
I do not want to shut my eyes
Because I know that when I open them it will be another day
I do not want to have to go through another day
Day after day I go without living,
It feels like I am walking in circles,
Because nothing is accomplished,
And nothing changes.
The sun comes up and I put on a smile
The sun goes down and I shed a tear
And so I stay up late,
Letting this beautiful darkness take over
Pure and silent,
Forgiving
Oh, how unlike is it from the shinning sun
Bright and prodding with questions and pain
And full of things that I
Just can’t stand to face alone
Again.
