Craving the warmth of another’s touch
When I just want to curl up,
And disappear from this world
Forever
With my frozen tears.
I am lost and lonely,
I desire for a hand to hold
And guide me to the piercing sunlight
That has been hidden from me
For too long,
I have forgotten its glaring rays
That kisses your soul
And warms your heart,
What it feels like
To be filled with hope and faith
That the sun will rise again.
Desperation for a shoulder
To cry on fills my head,
My only goal is to beat this loneliness,
This ache that I feel with
Every breath I take,
And every beat my treacherous heart makes.
Alone in my room,
Lost and sad with nowhere to go,
Thoughts of death fill my brain,
Being all alone does this
On the days where the sadness
Takes over.
I curl up with my wet eyes,
Praying for the walls around me
To disappear,
Hoping for the endless sleep,
Yet my dreams crash against me instead,
And betray me.
Starting out as perfect and beautiful,
Eventually transforming into nightmares
To poison my soul
And drag me into the depths of loneliness.
I crave for the feeling of another’s love,
When my heart keeps on breaking
And my tears will not dry
Because I have not felt loved
Just hatred for the longest time.
Am I deserving of each gaping wound?
Maybe this pain and those words,
The fear I felt when running from your grasp,
Maybe my horrible soul deserves it.
I am too weak to permanently
Pull myself out of this sadness,
I keep falling down from your blows,
Standing back up with an empty soul.
Save me please,
I just do not know what to do anymore
When the sadness takes over,
And I cry all alone
Just another time.
