Hating myself
Why can I not feel?
I prance around like a happy fool
Smiles faked
Laughs made
Joking with friends at school
Only to come home and crawl into my hole
Full of my emotions
Mixing and swirling
Hating and paining
Fighting and biting
My emotions battle against each other
My heart battles against my brain
And my soul battles against my heart
A mix of confusion here
A pinch of craziness there
A heart full of pain
A soulful of happiness goes down the drain,
What I am left with is a soulful of sadness
A brain full of anger
A heart filled with pain
Confusion muddling my brain
And craziness biting at my heels
The potions have long ago been mixed
My emotions had no choice,
And neither did I
If I had known
I would have stopped this
I would have stopped the pain
But how?
We all eventually regret the past
And wish that we could change
Something that we can’t
Something that we had no fault in
And yet
It is our life
And only we have the control over our life
